Don't wish to be alone.

Just end my day in CDC, got home at around 10pm.
A very depressing day at CDC, have to travel home alone.
Since the beginning of this attachment, I was assigned alone during my shift.
I'm not that strong, my dear NYP nursing-coordinator.
If I haven look for them, they wouldn't look for me.
Them referring to my colleague friends working together.
DAMN SAD!
WHATEVER.
Have to get use to it, as soon as possible.

Share with your a slight incident that happened just now.
Not sure whether am I suppose to say this but... I'm not stating any names, or so.. so I guess it's going to be alright.
After my break, I strolled into staff room cum pantry to put my drinks.
As I was putting my drinks, I was thinking to go to the toilet to relief my bladder.
About to do so, and call bell rang.
Quite annoyed by it, as I was I thought I could slack for some more minutes.
It was a call from my favourite uncle there.
Happily went over and asked him for any help request.
He actually said that he wanted to open bowel; he had constipated for 3-4days.
I was quite happy when he said that, but he requested to do his business in the toilet.
As I thought he may not be within my ability, and it's best to work with a Staff nurse.
Therefore I went asking from help from a staff nurse.
I approached two of them, they all replied the same: Hadn't he had his pampers?
In my heart I rebutted them: So what if he had pampers? Can't he have his right to do whatever his wants at the place he wants.
Albeit their saying, I proceed with what I was taught; to follow my consciousness.
After which, one of the staff nurse seen whatever I was doing, ran forward to help.
What I believe we, nurses, are there to help the patients, therefore we should do as much as we can to help them..

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I'm freaking sad right now. :C
I'm so not use to work alone during attachment.
The loneliness...
The boredom... :S
Shall not continue with my emo thoughts, shall visit my Youtube Subscriptions, and laught my emo-ness out!

Routine of my life during attachment

HEY people, I know your miss me, I miss your too!
HAHA.
NARCISSISM!

anyway, life have been super busy.
In actual fact it's not busy just it's just pure lethargy I'm experiencing.
How my life goes during these few days was...
(1) Wake up (0530)
(2) Switch on the computer
(3) Wash-Up (0550)
(4) Research on the 'homework'
(5) Get Going (0605)
(6) Walk to MRT and wait for it (0620)
(7) Journey to Novena (0642)
(8) Walk to CDC (0658)
(9) Put down my stuff and sign in (0705)
(10) Listen to report (0750)
(11) Follow a staff nurse, help out as much as I can... (1000/1100)
(12) Have my break (1100/1200)
(13) Answer call bells/ Read case sheets (1300)
(14) Meet Mdm Tang[My clinical instructor] (1500)
(15) GO HOME! Repeat (7) then (6) then back to Sembawang (1600)
(16) Get Set C from MR Bean[Soya-Pearly with blueberry pancake] (16.10)
(17) Wash-Up (16.15)
(18) Watch television (17.15)
(19) Sleep till next morning.

Since Monday till yesterday I have been living this kind of boring routines.
Today I'm working Afternoon shift therefore have bit of time to blog.
But shall tell your more tomorrow, kind of rush today...
BYE PEOPLE! :D

THANK-YOU post

Yesterday recieved a massage from Xanthe.
She read my blog and sent me various way to get to KKH, and told me that CDC is not inside TTSH but a 10minute-walk away.
HAHA.
TOTALLY GRATEFUL FOR THAT, BIG HELP!
THANK YOU, XAN! (She likes pink so make it pink. :D)

Today is totally not a day for work.
It started to rain in the morning and like you know, when the weather turns cold, your bed will be the best place to stay in. My body and mind refuses to get out of bed when the alarm rings off. Last resort to threaten myself that if I don't, I'll be scolded by my first-in-charged; who is the scariest woman in this world when she scolds. The fear got myself jumped out of bed, that's how frightening it is.
The whole day was just pretending, pretending to be hard working, pretending to be to know everything, pretending not to be tired... etc.
haha, this post is getting no where.
SUPER TIRED right now, have to prepare for tomorrow attachment.
:D Goodnight earthlings.

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED!

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY C'MAINE!
Suppose to complete this but, lazy and busy. (always that excuse)
BUT here I'm playing it!

Rules of the game:

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Ok, Lets start:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I'll play it dramatic.
Like you know, all the 9pm dramas.
Maybe I'll kill the 3rd party, or get super emotionally and kill myself.

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To be god.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Something romantic, like what always happen in the movies..

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Currently, yes.

#5. What will you do if you found a bag of money?
I'll look if anyone's looking, or look out for gotcha camera.
If no one is looking and no cameras, I'll be dishonest and keep them.

#6. Then, what will you do if you keep the money?
If you didn't keep the money, will you regret?
I'll bank it, and will get interest out of it.

#7. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
To be love.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Curse and swear; start comparing.. etc.
After which, I'll find myself stupid.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
YES, but that's part and parcel of life.
I always say it's just how you think, you can make yourself HAPPY if you really want to.

#10.Who makes your day?
MYSELF, MY THINKING, ME.
(But... myself, me, my thinking, is all made out of the people around me!)

#11. What will you do will you're feeling down?
CRY. (best way to release myself)

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
To my opinion, 27/8 years old is still considered young, so at the age maybe I'll have a beer-belly due to too much clubing, get drunk everyday, not bathing will not be a problem, house will stink like garbage truck with lots of cockroaches crawling... (joking) that only can be imagined.

Perharps something more to reality.
I'll have a stable job, working non-stop like a workaholic, too oblique to everything, as clumsy as before, maybe settle down with a relationship, about to marry or have a first child...
That's how beautiful I'm thinking my future now, but who knows...

#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
IF you ask me the most important person, it will be my mother.
But people: (it will be more general) Everyone around me. With your, it'll be just me.

#14. If you passed away, you're given a choice to reincarnate into, what will you choose?
And why?
I want to be elephant.
Because I want to enjoy their carefree life.
Not as in really carefree, but not as stress as a human.

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
If I have to choose, I'll choose married but poor.
Poor people can live happily too, moreover I'm married..
Marriage it's not just about one person, but both.
The interaction between two person can be magical.

#16. What is the first thing you do every morning?
Recently, the first thing I did was to groan about having to wake up at the insane hour.

#17. Would you give all in a relationship?
It's a maybe question.
There's so much to be considered.
If my partner deserve that, I'll definitely give.
Relationship is all about giving and taking.
Can't possibly, you're always the one who gets to eat, but your partner always starve.
One day he/she will die OR move on...
Back to the question, I'll doubt I'll give all, but as much as I can give.

#18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
None perhaps.
I'm a lazy person hate being dilemma.
Too much thinking kill my brain cells.
It's either want or don't want.
Don't want would be a better choice in this case.
If you ask me If I happen to crave for two ice-cream, maybe I'll buy both of them.

#19. What type of friends do you like?
Friends who are nice and caring.

#20. What type of friends do you dislike?
Hate friends how always talk continuously non-stop without even catching a breath.
They talk about everything and anything.
What you wish you could just shut their mouth, but being the always nice guy who oblique to everything. I'll just shut myself off.

tagged:
All people who read my tag.

where is CDC and KK hospital?

Hey people, is CDC located in another building or in TTSH?
I couldn't even find a website that is under Singapore CDC.
What I found was this, CDC which is under TTSH.
So the ward91/72 I'm suppose to go is in TTSH?
I'm suppose to know all these weeks before but I was too lazy to find out.
Today at this hour, at that very near last minute, I just finished checking my schedule for my attachment.
But I have a BIG problem now.
I don't know where is CDC and KK Hospital,
and I don't know how to go...
Guess have to seek help from my friends..
Alternatively... hehe(evil laugh),
YOU, yes you, who is reading this...
NOW, yes now, click on to comment and start typing the ways to go to CDC and KK hospital.
(I stay in Sembawang, and prefer to travel by MRT)

Please please, really need it. :D
(don't playplay with me hor!)

I'm a lazy person!

Now the links are getting longer and longer.
Not advertising for anyone in my links.
I like to read them but hate to save them under a notepad.
It's so troublesome to always copy and paste the links.
Know that there is something call favourites, but prefer this method.
It's like a stone killing two birds at one go.
I can share with you people; the links I normally visit, at the same time it's for my sake.
Just call me lazy.
Feel like as I aged, I'm getting lazier and lazier.
Now, I'm worst then before, I got lazier that I'm lazy to pretend that I'm not lazy.

As a lazy person, I often love shortcuts.
That's why I had chosen Mozilla Firefox, then Internet Explorer.
They're the first to came out with the tab tab thingy.
Before Mozilla Firefox bought into my life, I always was annoyed by how many windows I have to open. As I'm lazy, I love to do a lot of things at the same time to shorten the time I spend in front of the computer. But I will always end up with 10 and above Internet explorer which is super irksome. NOW Mozilla Firefox has improved.
Mozilla Firefox 3 is out!

Today you'll make history with Firefox

Are you ready to make history? Are you ready to set a World Record? Today is Download Day. To become part of the official Guinness World Record you must download Firefox 3 by 17:00 UTC on June 18, 2008, or roughly 24 hours from now.

Set the Guinness World Record with Firefox!
Are you as lazy as me?
I downloaded, have you?

(refer to Felixer for more information)
Felixer is a blogger who blog about almost everything.
Reading his post to keep me updated with the world. :D

Anyway if you wanna speed up your Firefox, check out this site.
I really works.

Something random.
Last time I complained that I couldn't see my nuffnang,
now I can't see the pictures from Zipia.
How my I gonna shop with the pictures.
Somebody help.

Life

Now my head is feeling super light.
Just cut my hair on Monday.
Now it's SHORT, not like the previous emo hairstyle.
I always find it hard to communicate with hairstylist.
They always will ask this: 'what kind of hairstyle would you like?'
and I will always say, whatever, just cut it, just make it not so messy
They really did, but the style was always to their likings.
Don't you always find it hard to define what you want to them, and not wanting to talk so much with them. I never like talking with hairstylist cause whenever I visit a salon, I really wish to enjoy the comfortable sit and relax as the music plays.

Whatever it is, my hair is short now.
Soon I'll get use to it, anyway attachment ain't suppose to have emo hairstyles.


Recently catch up with quite a number of old friends.
Like last Friday, went out with secondary school friends.
I was so embrassed that whole day.
In the start we playing Frisbee, and as I was trying to do a catch.
Guess what have happened.
My pants torn, a slight bit at the most embarrassing place.
I quite know how to handle this kind of moment, I pretended that everything is normally, continued with the game.
After which we went cycling, like you know, when you sat the torn part will open.
I tried to cover it as much as I can, luckily no one notices it.
We travel to and fore (5-6kms of cycling), super tireding.
After which we went to clean up ourselves, and I totally forgotten that my pants was torn.
I sat down on the bench with my legs open facing a group of people barbecuing.
As I was looking at the sea direction, at the corner of my eye, I saw a couple playing 'scissor paper, stone'. I happily enjoy my view and didn't bother about them.
They caught my attending again, as the guy was walking towards my direction.
I wondered what happen and pretend that I was enjoying the scenery.
He came beside my ear was whispered to me that my pants was torn.
I was stunned for a second, remembered which.
I thanked him, and quickly rushed to the toilet.
Super embarrassed, I still put up 'as-if-everything-was-alright' face in front of my friends.
That quickly end the embarrassment.
In the night, we went Chiomp Chiomp to have dinner.
The food there was heavenly, shall go there again.

Okay, shall end the post here.

Clumpy self

How many word that start with C can you describe on me:
Clumsy,
Careless,
Crappy
... etc.

Today I did clumpy stuff as usual.
Incident #1
I mistaken my key as rubbish and threw it in the bin.
I tried to retrieve it back, but I guess because of the weight it sink into the deepest hole and got glued there. Moreover, I totally couldn't reach the base of the bin, the height of it is high up to my waist. With my short hands I totally couldn't reach it and I end up looking like a retarded, or already is retarded.

I miss my key!
GIVE ME BACK MY KEY, YOU MONSTER!

Incident #2
Singapore is so small yet so complicated.
Just a 5 minute walk you realised that you are in another shopping mall.
I adjourned from city link to Marina Square mall, and happily thought that it's Suntec City mall. I got a movie ticket from the Golden Village Cinema which I took 10minutes to find. After which I realised that I didn't enough cash to spend and went searching for a DBS atm. I happily got lost in the freaking mall and end-up turning round the whole mall for god-knows times, and after being direct by the information counter to god-know where. Maybe the toilet? With my intelligent brain I finally realise that I have been there before and recalled that the ATM is just 100steps away from the cinema. Why did I talk about the movie tickets? Think about this I'm meeting ML in Suntec City mall and is going to watch a movie at Marina Square mall, albeit it just a 5 minute walk, don't you think is a bit MADNESS, not a bit totally MADNESS, when Suntec City has a cinema.

I hate memorising directions!
Next time I'll hire directionst..

One day I'll die in the street without knowing why.
Maybe it's because I'm clumsy?
or stupid like what ML said.
haha.

Story of traffic lights.

Sometimes I just wonder does a gangster thinks before they speaks?

Tell you a short happening today.
I was waiting for the traffic light to turn green, and happen there was two gangster-wanna-be cyclists who cycling in a 20km/hr speed on the road. I was thinking that how dangerous is it to cycle on the road; who knows a big truck traveling in 100km/hr and didn't see the tiny little you who chose a tiny little bicycle and cycle on the tiny little road. BANG! There you go! Flying like a superman but landing like a pancake. With these train of thoughts I happen to look at one of the gangster-wanna-be, and guess what he shouted at me?

' Kua Si Mi Lan Chiao!'
Direct translation: Look what penis!

When they shouted that, I feel like saying I'm looking at a Small ugly slanted penis!
They actually refer themselves as Lan Chiao.
HAHAHA!
I was looking at them, and they knew that I was looking, so when they said that aren't they referring themselves as penis?

Anyway I recalled Fam told me a story of her friend's friend.
(Lets' call her Q)
Q pass away in a road-traffic accident on her first day of school due to her Jay-walking.
You thought that when you Jay-walked, and cars start coming in your direction.
You think that you're smart enough to stand on the small island that separate the roads.
You happily think that you're save from the cars.
This story tells you that you're wrong..
Q stood on the island, and a driver drove onto her.
A pregnant driver claims that she was was in a rush.
After she told me the story, I never Jay-walk again.
Sounds scary isn't it?

Don't Jay walk but you're in a rush... HOW?
I saw this video that works for motorcycle, but maybe maybe it works for human too.

Trigger GREEN Traffic Lights! - The best video clips are here

Maybe you can try it and tell me does it work..

A moment of happiness and a moment of sorrowfulness.

Yahoo oooo~!!!!
My 'hoo' can last forever, cause I'm really in great mood right now.
Thinking that I have two weeks of break!
I really need and deserve it, if not you'll see my picture being printed on the front page newspaper, not because I'm famous... but you know...
Nah; digressed.
This week is well-planned with lots and lots of outing, lots of catch up have to do. :D

(drastic change of mood when I talk of my job)

How about work?
I hate my job and IC so much that I literally thought of quitting with ever moment I spend with my IC. If you ask me to use describe my job, I'll say it's indignant. :C
I still love my ex-manager, DALIMA you're the best!
Reality leads me to no choice.

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What happened today really strikes me.
Can't believe that if one day my mother is gone, I really can't imagine it.
You know I really do although I appear not to love my mother.
Today I finally have time to sit and eat with my mummy.
She was told by her friends that she aged drastically.
A sign that I never realize recently, it was even told to her by her friends.
Find that I really haven been staying home since forever.
Can't remember when was the last time I looked at my mother closely.
I have a close look on her.
She really aged and is aging fast.
She got thinner, and more winkers has tattooed on her face.
Winkers that has showed her all sorrowfulness.
Suddenly I felt unfilial.
Maybe it's not just my feelings, it's how your feel too.
At this point, I feel helpless.
Helpless of saying louder than doing.

Maybe I should just quit my job (since I'm working so unhappily) and accompany her more.
What do you think?

I have no one to say.

(saved as draft)
(words that shouldn't be published)
(so many reasons that this can't be vebalise and published to/for anyone)