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Deeppaininmyheart30/03/2006












Thisfewpictookondiffdays... freakingcrazyttitookthosecrimesenefotointhetoilet.
im really crazy this few days la.jux hope i die sooner or something... watever-haix i was scolded by mr sham yesterday... which make me quite sad la. This story goes like this, my freak fren yi xiang hu dun wan to let me copy his compre which he copied. hai me emptywork done to go eng class which make me so chem. watever-but i still noe is my fault la. When mr sham scold he, he also drag the tues thingy over, he say wat i ply w oi yin which is he kepp bullying me lor, take my things or watever. i tried to concentatre, then iss him is say i also got fault got fault not tellin teacher or watever. since when i ply w him. this got me fucked up and sad at the same times. i juc dun understand y peeps jux dun understand me, y peeps jux dun wan to get things clear then set a concluetion. at first i wan to talk back, but i dun wan to get things big, ixt wat i do is enough.... haix sometimes i jux do things but peeps jux dun feel it. haix. tell u 30/03/06 also happen some thing which make me so heart broken. i though everything is jux normal is jux tt we dun tok. But u need to suan me infront of ur fren. is not i didnt hear tt. is jux tt i m cryin in my heart. wth is- 'o'levels is coming, wat prelims.... wat 'o'levels got test abt ps2.... watever... this is another tt make me so disappointed. argghhhhhhhhh. n his fren join in, jux wanna me stop plyin so tt they could ply. i hardly get to ply-i jux ply tt day n they tok so much abt it. tt day is the day the ps2 went to his frens hus. wat the pro of lettin me ply.... peeps jux got me so frustrated. then after tt i go n buy food for me n them. as i predicted. when i come back then already plyin ps2.... sian la. today i did something tt got yvonne angry. i say tt she n gp. i noe it lame but it me. but at the end of the day i say sorry i think she forgive me. sian. i really in my depression, i slp so much cos i m metally stress n tired. i jux feel like dying............... really. jux got so headache now tt i cannt remember anything..... haix

sad-

Considering for me today is the worst day in this year i think. Frm this morning 2am till now is really a torture to me. Never got enough slp. STUPID Causework- by the way this is not the main pt of the day- i tok to her on msn thought she will nto reply but instead she told me many things. i was quite happy at first- but after tt my mindset was wrong- i shld share w her pro. then i was influence by her. her pro become my pro- i really felt sad and wanna cry- i dun wish her to think abt these things bec i dun wanna lose her. but after tt changing topic- maybe the enmosphere is better.........

causework sux.

haix- stupid form 2 am do till 6am- today need to hand up causework. CAUSEWORK sux. jux dun feel like gg to sch todae cux still got one part nv do. dun care tomorrow then hand up. now raing damm heavy jux hope i can slp. but gg to sch soon- ha! still got an hr ltr overslp. sian.

busy days

this few days i fucking bux, and have no time to ply com. Haix stupid causework make me so fuck off!!! Haix though yesterday mux hand up... so stay back to do till 6 plus. Fuck lor, at last ms fong let us hand up on monday. the others leii dun need stay back also can hand up on monday... FUCK OFF!!! so unfair! haix. my bro n his friend kepp come hus to use com hai i cannt use, why cannt go his frens hus, chee *** one lor. HAIX. so freaking sian still have to do causework!

bugged off!!

-Some self shoots i took in sch-




Bug-off!!! Jux now, so fucking funny. i jux used my com, then there was bugg flew infront of me n landed on the com table. i jux pick it up n threw out of the window. -bastard one land on my face and i acc. killed it. i found it werid, i jux threw it out of the window how come it landed on my face. Then i found another on the desk again, it was so werid. i old my mother, she told me to look on the ceiling. i saw 5-6 bugg flying and surrounding the light. i got scare sia. Then i kill them, i think now left one which i dunnoe flew where. sian, so creepy. i jux felt so itchy over my body after i look at them. SIAN.... the whole day was like doing nth- jux hope sat n sun will come faster, it jux one day... YEAH!!! heee- i want TO SLP LONG LONG. recently hardly use the com so did not do project , who caress i think nxt mon then i hand up....

haven been posting.

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Im really pissed by the life recenltly sia- everything dun go as what im wishing for. i jux dun feel like gg to sch for some reasons-i dunnoe wat my heart/brian is thinkin abt. im jux too disappionted w wat is happening in this world. Recenlt i went to many blogs n friendster profile. i found o/ many celebraties webby. Not many- but some. Ex, Freindster=> maia-which is a fren who told me, projectsuperstar de Leon, JY, Jason-found myself one de lei but nth to be proud of, JY one he oly allow ppl who are close to him to view him, campussuperstar- Yu yang and sheena, and leon gf-fidel and last but not least leon blog, he haven been blogging so do not know what he's gg thr. He's last blog is march192006. Haix- like none is my business, and one blog- my cousin intro to me one- very sad her gf was hospitialise in an accident. she was pronoce braindead, tt v.sad ixt it.... ex. like someone who u jux met yesterday n today u heard this news, it is shocking ixt it. who will believ e this crap but it ixt a crap lor. Haix- sad- Today did not went to sch, so fuck up, bec i set my alarm clock at 5.45 jux to wake up to do my english hw. but then i didn't instead i woke up at 7.15.wtf, hu cares, i jux contiune slping. ha- then wait till 7.30 somthing then call my mother- tell my mother tt i woke up late wahaha. then bargain w her tell her tt i do not want to go sch. wahahha. at last dun need go sch. but the whoke day nth to do, haix so fast gg tomorrow liao sian.

life sux.

today no pics to post- nth to take, tell u a sercet dunnoe y qurraling w her on msn i felt..... so gd. maybe it becum an excerise of the day ba w/o it cannt be energetic. NO la- jux feel tt last time is we quarrel w others not we two quarrel. u noe, i went to youtube to watch video saw peeps makin a photo video n they n their frenx. i so envy of them. how i wish someone will make for me. obviously no peeps will make for me. haix lonesome freak. living in this will need sfrenx obviously.... i do not have enough... actually now i really have nth to regret after i die, so now it is when i choose the date. everything, everyone is making me so stressful n pissed off. i jux feel like running away. i cannt do anything to help, i jux wan to run away. jux to run away frm this evil world. i miss my dad, but i miss my mum too... recalling how i mother cry drying my pa's funeral, i jux felt so bad, i jux wish tt everyone will not be crying when i m dead. but not in tt way tt everyone is luffing tt make me more........... fuck up. tt the oly two word i can discribe of. how i wish to born in the world tt i can soak in the clearish blue sea water, tanning under the sun beside a beach house tt the life i wanna be in. i m dreaming now, but a sec after i came back to real life. wat a disappointing dream. i hope i can trap in the dream. yup- jux wish i could-then everything will be prefect. life jux sux so much- i jux wish i will be in ash. let peeps miss me beta then now- no one will ever think or me.................

laze around the whole day....

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campbellesoup...

feel disgusted?

the canned-soup is boiling.....

tempted?nah~


Long long time ago... wat crap?! ha-today morning laze till 12something then wake up. Last night i 4 something then slp, so pro right... i will miss then times i late slp... bec the holiday is going to end in 2days. i will miss it. Haix why peeps complain when they must study and why some peeps complain tt thhey cann't study. life is alwys like that, when you have it u complain, when u do not have it u also complain. thus, life is alwys abt complaining, and we're complain kings n queens. Wat a logic... wahahhaa. Then i watch two korean shows till afternoon, wat a show, some part funny, some part so boring till tears came out of my eye, some parts it damm sad tt tears came out of my eyes. Really lei, wat a show, dunnoe how to comment on it.Then sian till now, ply com watch tv, wat a life..... wahahhaha.

fun-today

style hor

smile=D

smile-girls

dammcool huh

can i bend it?

they lonelycourt.

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smack-itmama

-sian

surf-itmama

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lookin at guy ar?

wack-itmama

funny=D

pushitdown.....

pushitdown...

yeah-fun...

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takepics....

thinking of.......

WTH-shy...

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today hav alot of fun- ply badminton frm mornin to afternoon aound 3 something. meanwhile we got ply badminton, go zhen hao hus-sercert-iPSinhishus-shiiii~, still got eat fired rice. so nice. wahahamaybe i too hungry then. now also very hungry tis whole wk like doin nth. sian tomorrow jiu friday, nxt wk jiu sch reopen, need to hand up reseach..... sian ar.... now so hungry. whole day hav fun.

da chang jin finish leeeo.

Lyin there watch vcdsss


Home Run











they are in love.....











Chang jin~











the guy in the da chang jin :D













I didn't early yesterday night, i watch home run till late in the night. Wahahaha. Not really funny i know. Today i got so fuck up with mr felix. Walking from far towards the school i saw mr felix outside the school gate. i look at my PE t-shirt and i knew im gg to be dead. As i walk up, he called me, not surpise at all, he say" didn't i wrote and reminded ur so many times that if your are coming to school, your need to be in uniform...." watever i dun even give a damm. He asked me to go home n change to uniform and come. Still asked me to run if not im gg to be late. i ran a short distance then stop, im late by the way. When i reach home i took my un-iron uniform and wore it to school. who care by the way. When im about to reach the school,luciky i didn't see any sight of him, but when i walk up i saw him talking to a bunch of guys... surely is didn't want to go home and change one. haha- then he called me. WTF... say wat u see he also go back and change wat so difficult.... watever- seems like im a guai kai. indeed i m one... sob actually i also do not want to go one, but my liang xin said cann't. sob. Then when in to mdm kua lesson, sian i cannt find the page she is teachin on. Ha- thanks to my intelligent brian i finally the stupid page. Then, haix, she drag the lesson to miss chia lesson actually im happy but i wish the lesson top end early because my bladder is gg to brust.ha- when wanted to ran out of then class mdm kua hold us. She said we haven gave her the anser sheet. ha- who cares. i ran to the toilet n straight miss chia lesson. Then lesson went smoothly till some pigs in the class make her angry at the end of the class... WTF. haix, but still could surive out of the class room. wahahaa.Then i went home watch da chang jin till jux now. Quite a nice show- still dreaming in their world.... so hungry! go to eat- :D sian... now is 11.58. jux chatted with shirley. who knows when im cryin in my heart, i wish to stand strong but i cannt, i wish tt everything to be prefect but i dun wish to take the first step. it is to hard for me, everytime i did it things will repeat, i have to return, i have to tried to take the first step, do you know it is hard for me too. maybe now no ones understand what i m saying, but just know im crying in my heart deep inside. Reflection? i alwys did. but the o/c of it will be diff frm wat i reflect.... i m jux sick and tired of it. i jux wan to run away frm it, i wan to act strong tt no one knows tt i m hurt too. when u treat me gd, when u say nice things to me it really melts my heart but when u say thing tt is really harsh to me. it hadden my heart. my heart jux cldnt get out of it till someone really melts my heart. what i ask for ixt really big? did i ask for big things?..... i jux wan someone to care for me, hug me, love me.... till now..... but wat i mostly see is the bad things frm u, can u jux LOVE me for once. deep down frm ur heart and give me a hug. And care for everything tt i do......... can u?

i need my holidayss.

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my 'fantastic' work

See-mrsham teaching peeps.....


wahahah-lame. the 5,4,3,2,1, ! is took todae one. so bo liao right... hahaha. when i watching tv then the sunshine form the !... wahahah. sooo surpise. startin frm yesterday i hav to go back to sch. sian. on monday woke up so early to attend the 8.30 lesson. wtf... mrsham told us b4 chang to 9.15. wt... forget la. if remember can slp more sia.then the nxt lesson is ss lesson. mrsham late realise us sia. so go ss late but haha. teacher go out n take something i think she did not realise we came in till we get the wrksht frm her. ha. then it is amath lesson. wtf stay until so long jux to finish the 5 ques. everyone was so fuck up lor. haix. stupid amath. then go home watch da chang jin. then become today. so fast huh... time passes really fast when u wan them to stop. haix. jux hope can dun study forever... todae heng oly got two lesson dun need to stay back until so late. first is chinese.... quite interestin when mdm kua tok but when nv nv tok kns. then whole class so bore. but haix jing yang they all kepp tokin dunnoe wat the pro sia. at first i forget where the class held but found them walkin together then ran down. hahaaa... lol. sian at first no one sit w me... then hahaa. too bad late comer hav to sit we me. sound like i got disease. no la ren yuan bu hao oly. sian. then mr chio lesson nv go. who cares-he sux! then go home watch da chang jin again. haix gg finish now watch until want last episode liao... haix. mornin go buy kfc to eat. haix recently keep watin fatty stuff. haix. surely.... sian. Recently im indeed a spoilbread, like today, after lunch n dinner i really couldn't finish my food. I threw away the rest of them, im really a spoilbread right? i knew tt. *am i sensitive or are u really bad at words? i ought to be used to it by now but i find it hard sometimes. and u're pretty hard to predict urself. and i hate asking and ended up with nothing. are we really friends, or just on the surface? someone to look fer when each of us are bored?* -this is what i took frm peeps blog, i think it really reflect wat i think....