Foget.

yesterday, wanted to post about this but i totally forget all about it. Tt's how weak my memory is. By the way, wat im gg to post is about this girl called HUI JUN. i met her in primary sch, surpisingly, one day, we both know that our birthday was on the same day. We are still good friends at tt time but after gg to secondary sch both of us nv contact each other. I met one or two times on the road. She was prettier then b4. But sadly, looking into her friendster photo really disappoint me. Dunnoe it true or wat. BUT shhe claim tt she n her frined smoke in one of the pic. DISGUST me totally. HATE smokers. but... haix. dunnoe wat to say

ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr~!

IDIOTIC friendster! OMG! it been so lack since dunnoe when, dunnoe is my internet surfer pro or wat la! i post a pic n to wait aday for the STUPID RESULT!! STUPID!!!! same goes to BLOGGER when i wan to blog purposly got hang right- u will be dead!!! haha- over reacted!

Hai hao la blogger, i waited for 5 mins then everything is okay! their system quite good not like some web. wahaha. so sacrastic! By the way, ur mux be wondering i shld spent more times on my work instead of surfing the nets. HAIX i jux dun get into the mood, i noe it like 2 days ltr, it also FREAK me up when the days are getting near. But my legs jux dun go into the study room and my butt dun jux sit tight on the chair and my focus jux dun focus on the bk! SO HOW TO STUDY LIKE TT!

EXCUSES! haha- it okay. i like spitting pesonaility. wahahaha.
i dun mind trying. LALALALAA- dunnoe y so high, but jux get into the mood when come to singing. BUT i noe my singing SUX like hell.wahaha.

haaa-

haa- ITS WEEKEND AGAIN :). iLOVE weekend, can slp till very late. haha, but nxt week is MID-YR EXAM lei. KIND of stress la- many things i still do not know, jux hope someone can spare sometime for to to teach me... wahaha. LUCKILY still got 3 day to revise, mux work hard lor.

CHANGE TOPIC ba, tomorrow run for 2.4km. KNS la, nv eat, run half way jiu feel like puking liao, haha- stupid right!! At first wanted to stop running but, if now dont run NXT TIME still need to run mae. SO i force myself thr. BUT i still quite happy w my result cos i got the 10 place in my class. wahaha. when FINISH RUNNING, i REALLY feel like DYING lor, so tired and stomach so PAIN. but now evrything it OKAY. wahhaha-

today so lucky, do not have remedial or wat, got home at around12.45. FUCKING POOR MEMBORY cause me to run back to sch. i BATH until half way then JACKSON called me-i didnt ans la. cause he is the chinese rap, then it reminded me tt i need to hand up the work which i did, if not need to stay back on nxt tues. SIAN, RUN back to sch. haix- saw KE RUI he also handing up the work, haha- he cannt find mdm qua locker. SOME RETARDS jux so lame to tear out the teachers name on the LOCKER. wahahha- but at last we found it with my help. See im celver. haha- self-praise.

Tell ur something now, i really felt STRESS, maybe is because im not prepare for anything as MR CAT said, SRESS oly come when u'r not prepare or something.

HEY

wahahhaha- today i quite happy cos i suddenly in love w studies for a short while. wahahhaha- cos jux now after sch was like gg for maths remedation. B4 tt was like chem lesson. ME, eve, Li ping and nusu in a grp dicussing abt chem lor. REALLY fun in the grp cos if one of us do not know and the others know tt person will really teach lor. If not we will ask the teacher today. wahaha;] then most of the time is LI PING teaches me la, thk her lor, cos she is so pro lor at first i know nth abt chem then after she teach i know some liao wahahha. THEN math initially we mux go for the PHY one but, we go the the MATH she also teach me alot la. BY the way jux thk her lor. wahahhaha-

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Long time nv blog lor- waggaa. NOW it 10. Know wat, jux now come back frm sch jiu slp. wat a pig right. SIAN LOR RECEBTLY VERY STRESS.... haix no time for blogging- see nxt time got time zai blog/

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Recently i very stress, so lots of problems lei. Haix, sian yi ban lor, causework haven do finish, then haix, jiu shit alot of pro. TODAY fucking angry la. i hardly got so fuck up when someone disturb me. i think im tt kind of person tt HATES NAGGING. then todae english lesson. WTF was wrong w YI XIANG. i hate it, when he is so childish lor, fuck lor, still say wat i sttitude makes peeps jux hate me, i do not noe whether it is true or not. BUT i the FUCK i have attitude, i only give it when peeps jux disturb me tt much tt i cannt stand la. haix, initially, i jux wan to see his e-Zlink card kae, then we said we will exchange la- wat he fucking pro on tricking me!!! FUCK LA! he jux take me card n pass it to the SINGH! then show around, that make me so pissed, tt i dun wish to talk to him. THEN i obiously must snatch frm him la, his FUCKING PRO blame on me. HIS CARD was like already in the worst state, he still go round spread tt i make he card worst watever la. KEEP MURBERING BESIDE ME and say all my bad words. i so angry tt i can punch on him lor. HE SAY I HATE PEEPS WHO LIKE N DO NOT DARE TO SAY...... watever la. DUNNOE IS WHO LIKE WHO LOR! HIS FUCKING PRO! I N EVE IS JUX FRIENDS LA! IF U ARE MENTALLY RETARD OR SOMETHING! TOO BAD FOR U LA. Say tt i like eve but i dun dare say, say i friendless, attitude pro, i shouted at him la. YOU GOT EVIDENCE TT I LIKE EVE NOT, i also can say tt u like JIA YI, he say....... jux keep mubering and toking crap la. HAIX, i shout at him till i wan to punch him, i really nv met this kind of person b4. After the class like so many peeps ask me, wat happen in english class, it so funny lor, peeps say i angry very cute?! like huhhh..... then say wat i first time see me angry... then wf ask me wat happen, only tell her part of it wahaha. sian yi ban lor, i mux be very angry at tt time!!!

MORE funny things, GUESS WAT... hahha at chinese remidial like saw a show. wahahha- YVONNE,GHIM PENG and a SEC5 guy like in triangle LOVE. i so bad go into detail- haix-

sian yi ban la LIFE!

TODAY IS A SUAY DAY FOR ME

Today is really a suay day for me, u noe. Today i kind of wake up late, i say late cos initially i wanted to do my hw which i haven even touch by now. In the morning i ply com until quite late- then i went to my ah goong hus- u noe wat?! I WALK TO NEAR TO MY 3YI HUS WHICH IS T OLD BUS_STOP, I SNEEZE ON THE WAY WHICH PEEPS LOOK AT ME LIKE I SOME WAT A MONSTER THEN MY WALLET KANA BIRD SHIT WHICH IS A SUAY THING, at first i still dunnoe when i reach bus-stop i see. THEN i wait for so long then 856 came then i dobut myself i look at the panel it does not show 980 i was lik WAT THE FUCK i went ot the wrong bus stop. HAIX. anyway jux very fuck la.

THEN have to walk another 5-10mins to reach bus interchange then can board 980. Jux feel very fuck- then in the bus i SAW so UNHYGIENIC, UN CIVILISE, watever. he spit at least 3 times in the bus. can u imargine. THAT SO DISGUSTING.... haix- another thing- i really cannt take bus, car watever. i will jux go dizzy and faint la. haix.... hate it sia. watever it is, at the rest of the day have fun with my cousinsss... wahhahaa. today saw ah ping coming to ah gong hus- so surpise- wahaha- he is jux so cool forever. kk- beta got my hw done oresle i dunnoe wat will happen. N why holidays jux pass so fast- HATE.

What the hell- haix- jux playing com- then.... haix i jux dunnoe wanna blog this part. mother SAID i this yr change so much- u dunnoe wat actually have been gg on w me- hu is the one who make me so painful- hu is the one who dun care abt everything- hu is the who hu let me jux feel like slping forever. TELL U LA I M SO TIRED OF THIS WHOLE LA. if one day u leave this whole, i also decied not to life- so let have a happy ending ixt it so. TELL U LA- bro, im jux so sick leii. is u hu cause me to feel so painful..... is u hu let me change la.

SICK OF THIS FUCKING WORLD_ CANT LIFE JUX BE BEAUTIFUL. i jux wish i could slp forever. and ever.

CCAB

yesterday did not update cos i online at a not appropriate time. Yesterday morning i woke up very early in the morning, i went online, i gave 3-4 peeps a testi. see im a NICE guy, i LOVE children quote by mr 'anest'. wahahaha. After that, the time was like about 5-5.30 i went to bath, after that derrick call me, said tt he already reach.

Then i off the computer i went to meet him, we waited for 5-10 mintues, then they arrived. We sat at different tables but near to each other. Initially im eating there but after tt saw so many peeps queuing then i abort the idea. Shirley and GC asked nigel to buy food for them, and derrick(i think he do not want to spent the money on food).

After tt we board Mrt and bus to CCAB, then journey is long but i feel tt the time spent is short... who knows i did not realise the time even it was waiting for for the destination to arrived. We reach there was about the time they are gg to sing the national anthem, derrick n i saw his class so little peeps though no one came for the SAAF. Actually, they are all late. wahaha, actually the Rain save the day(to me). After we sing Naitonal anthem the rain started pouring.... ha- the whole thing was like delayed.

After that, it is a matter waiting, i was like just wait for the sake of waiting. Frist, i wait at the batminton court to see shirley and zixin ply. oh god- wat the hell is zixin doing- though tt they will win. Their opponent was like quite weak too- actually im a loser in plying BM too but still so much comment. wahaha.

Then, wait n wait... let me jump to tt part that me n yi xiang ate two ice-cream. It not a big deal i noe, but i find it so adnormal... it is the right word to use? who cares... haha- eat two ice-cream at one shot. i spent two dollar on it and yi xiang oly spent one dollar. Wondering y? cos the person who sells who is JIAYI-hees- treat him. Kae lets be fair, treat those she knows. Obviously i do not know her to tt extent tt she will treat me- wahahha. such a Loser...

Then after watching n cheering for the relay for abdullah- we was like so crazy shoutin' abdullah we love u........' diao// then adbullah went to bb team there, there was an annocement that everyone go to the hall. i took his bag n gerald bag- cannt imagarine if i left it there cos someone lost it bag- if it is me i will JUMP- frm the stairs. wahhaha. then gerald came for the bag- i gave it to him, then i went to BB court. was like 4e2 against 5n or watever....

It was the class tt grim peng fought w, not consider he fought, is those bo liao- who like to bang on others n stare at them as if is their fought- WTF, i also met one during CCAB. i was like WTF,, the yixiang went forward like want to confront him, i pull the bag of coz, i dun want to be 2nd grim peng. then i was like u siao ar, he said u pull my bag for wat, i m gg to thk them..... errrrr. FUCK u. hahaha.

Then they n our team fought furiously, ha- they was like soooooo violent- then we lost to them of cuz- then was like went we wan to leaft then there was one guy push grim pemg- he was like wat the fuck pro..... watever did not hear carefully- RECALLING the sence we 4e2 was like MR CHIO.... MR CHIO... (mr chio was confrontin the 5n...) then jing yang shouted CHIO BU... wahahaha- dunnoe shld be funny or wat. then he turns.... i think he also know wat happen la.

hahaha- then watever... but after all they was disqualify coz they use other class peeps lor- jux change tee half way- obviously they will win right. then they change back like no pro- then shout at mr chio now wat u want.... watever wat i heard is this la... but seriously lor when they snatch the balls from our class team, i was like wtH already but dun dare to shout- all ah benggs lorr. ply till so violent. want die ixt....

Then let jump to the lucky draw winners. Ha- at once went mr nasa called the name, he was like ' TAN JING.....' 'YANG'. i was like dottss on my face. actually went he tan jing.. tt time. my heart pump two sec faster. Then after the yang came out of his mouth i was like- hmpf! why not me!!! then abdullah also got it. it was like one register infront n behind me. WTF! where die all my lucks went.
By the way we also did not win for the cohort. Sian- was like so exicited about winning it end it nth. lose to e4.... yuck-again.

Sian- then was like gg back- derrick the pang ser-er. go home half way- then hai me alone we them. was like so left out lor.... haixxxx..... then we told taxi to nearest MRT station, then went to J8 to eat then went home-... haha- quite lame. but gg home was like nth to do also. They so good still can go charlet. by the time i went home i already drop dead- i slp till 9 plus gg 10 wahahah. then ply com. WTF my bro went home w his friend why everytime so suay- haix- hai me must let them ply- mux act act play the off.... sian yi bian.... tt all for yesterday.

Today i was wake up by my mother call, first he call my bro hp asking him to wake up then mine.... ahahha- ur mux be luffin. wat a family. Wake up for wwat neh? haix- last day- mux go pray for my father- went bathing.... then go their w my Gan-GE. i called his wife BIAO-shao.. wat my pro la... so pai sey. haix. then i was like urgent to go toilet- then traffic jam!!!

OMG! last day still so much peeps. kae fine nv wet my pants, find a toilet went we reach there. then was like so hard to find my father's... dunnoe wat tt called. then finallyy found it, they change the places, but still could see my father foto- cos it so inside. wat the fuck oly can see his eyes- so ke lian..... haix. then after prayin went home auite fast, my bro went working, my gan-ge drop him at bishan mrt- n i went home alone w them- jux hate tt. then ply com...... then now. yup.

i woke up early

haa- now is like oly 3.20. then i wake up liao wahahhaha. Today IS SAAF!!!! Wwahahahaha. dunnoe wake up so ealry for wat..... Tell u something two days ago- i jux cut my flesh- then adbllah sawy it yesterday, he say i noe u are stress but u dun need to cut urself. wahahaha i say i was stretch.... tt stupid!!!

COoking sux

Ha- today my stomach is like so sick- it 'puke' so many times, even when i having test, i jus could not bare the pain, i jus ask permission to the toilet. My day is so bad, my cooking at fnn turns out also not tasti. Others quite nice esp nusu CHEESE CAKE. Jux love it. hope i can 'steal' recipes frm her, wahahha.

today my life suck again....

another stupid drawing

stupid cuts

everything so hard/ dun think i can make it thr/o my life

my stupid drawing- broken hand neh.

my stupidity cause me to cut myself alot of times- i jus feel so stress la- i jus feel like running away frm life. i cut myself i think no one will care, i jux feel tt no one loves n care abt me. who? no one. Haix i noe it is not the first time i cutting myself but.... jux feel tt the oly way i can realli realise my stress.

who cares right.

haix today i cry until very chem i think it is the worst among all this yrs. i miss my dad, i miss him, i wish everything is prefect, but i jux didnt work out.

u noe yesterday my mom brought a shaver for me, first time jiu cut myself. so fuck, the scar is still there.

today also got my class tee. i choose L. it is like damm big. dunnoe la- ur comment lor. but now washing so no pics of it. wahahah.

haix i think i depression again.... i think i should say i alwys depress mae. haix actually eat i need is a helping hand or a console or a hug i needed...... but.... haix- too bad my life just dun allow this things to happen. i noe u are trying ur best, i jux can feel it.

Sian-

yesterday-shld be gg home at 12.30. Frist got chinese mentoring which is a test. wa~ the test quite hard leii- i think watever im stress up w my work or something i will keep pulling my hair tt y drop so much la. the chinese mentoring starts at 12.45 and end at 2.15. at 12.45 i ate an pizza. meanwhile waiting for phy mentoring which mr chio suddenly said tt today hav n which set some student as compusary. then at 2.30 i ate another n i can of ice lesson tea. After tt, i went to my classroom miss lim there, then i was looking at ales, yixiang plying their fones. then miss lim called us to do some amath first b4 gg to phy. initially wanna sit w xixiang than he moved away. haix- SUX lor alwys like this bully me. haix recently i feel tt i really have no str leii- y m i the one ur pick one- but i noe u trying be funny somehow la. watever. then after tt i nv go for phy n stay for amath till 6. then haha- hai miss lim so tired- shii~ miss lim was marking eve sister class test then we help her correct one- wahaha. so... wahaha. then finish leii when everyone go home i went to the toilet. xia dao the scray urinal the think suddenly pop up then shake so virously. then i come out then run to miss lim n the other guy de back wahahaha. scare sia. then in the night things again. cry so hard- i think i will nv do again leii la-

Disgusted!

ha-actually im really disgusted by my own fotos. u noe the "crime scene" thingy. haha- when i open my blog i saw this foto i where scoll down. ha- shy mae. Actually i pending for 13thApril2006 for the sport and art festival. it is consider a holiday for me, by the way the next day is good friday and i can have a short holiday till monday. wahaha=)

on that day im not gg to participate in any event, quite bore waiting.....

Quite contridicting hor, what im saying. haha-
nvm. tomorrow need to hand up lots of chinese hws sia. Today nv do chinese wkbk then i was punished. Yixiang and i dragged our table to nxt door to contiune our wkbk because mdm qua gg to go through in class.

i really dun wish to go school tomorrow cause tomorrow have physic lesson- tomorrow gg to be a sian day. Sob.