disappointment

i m no longer the mr NICE GUY like b4.... everyone started just felt disappointed. nowaday i kept thinking of things and my memory becum worst.
I feel like i almost forget everything on my life...... dunnoe one day will i lose my memory.

i reaching the edge of my life. i just feel like dying off RIGHT NOW. i dunnoe how, but i think i m doing it. COS i hate the way i m NOW. i m just a 16 year old kid, and GOD gave me so much problemsss.... i wish could to grow up in normal life... where peeps just love and care for me. dun say i m thick face- i just feel tht i m alwys giving and not taking frm others. i m just so tired.... im tired of contiune giving to others.

not to blame others for not knowing me well- but i just feel tt no one know me well enough....... what can i do tt i can die without any SHAME, HEARTBREAKINGs. haix.

should i contiune living or not.
seriouly i m TIRED.
almost every min when i m crossing the rd, i just hope a car bang into me.
OR something frm a tree suddenly drop and killed me.
BUT i nv happen.
the SKY just doesnt go my way. whenever i want it to rain it always shine. whenever i want it to shine it alwys rain. STUPID. i just feel like soaking myself in the rain- to hide all the tears on my face.

PAINFUL!!!!! i quarrel w my mum alot. COS of my stupid brain/ i alwys care abt my face alot. she ask me to do tt i purposeyly do not do. WTF is w me. i jux hate myself la. haix...............

when i die will u all miss me or cry for me........

forget it. im poor in relationship, friendship, cousinship........?
no one will care.




by the way
HAPPYBIRTHDAY! to shirley may ur life be blissful.