feeling better.

dunnoe what happen... now feeling better. now my forcus is not on the stupid promblem. tomorrow is chinese o level lei. OMG. by the way thk jie for ur encouragement. maybe i wont think of this for the meantime.

Me and my stupid brain..... laaaaaaaa. now eating bread. the bread so soft. NICE!~.....

disappointment

i m no longer the mr NICE GUY like b4.... everyone started just felt disappointed. nowaday i kept thinking of things and my memory becum worst.
I feel like i almost forget everything on my life...... dunnoe one day will i lose my memory.

i reaching the edge of my life. i just feel like dying off RIGHT NOW. i dunnoe how, but i think i m doing it. COS i hate the way i m NOW. i m just a 16 year old kid, and GOD gave me so much problemsss.... i wish could to grow up in normal life... where peeps just love and care for me. dun say i m thick face- i just feel tht i m alwys giving and not taking frm others. i m just so tired.... im tired of contiune giving to others.

not to blame others for not knowing me well- but i just feel tt no one know me well enough....... what can i do tt i can die without any SHAME, HEARTBREAKINGs. haix.

should i contiune living or not.
seriouly i m TIRED.
almost every min when i m crossing the rd, i just hope a car bang into me.
OR something frm a tree suddenly drop and killed me.
BUT i nv happen.
the SKY just doesnt go my way. whenever i want it to rain it always shine. whenever i want it to shine it alwys rain. STUPID. i just feel like soaking myself in the rain- to hide all the tears on my face.

PAINFUL!!!!! i quarrel w my mum alot. COS of my stupid brain/ i alwys care abt my face alot. she ask me to do tt i purposeyly do not do. WTF is w me. i jux hate myself la. haix...............

when i die will u all miss me or cry for me........

forget it. im poor in relationship, friendship, cousinship........?
no one will care.




by the way
HAPPYBIRTHDAY! to shirley may ur life be blissful.

BAD DAY

BAD DAY!!! by daniel powter. yaya! t not wat im gg to say. YESTERDAY i was beaten up, oka so not exaggerating. i want being knock on my head u know my taboo one la. HATE ppl jux hit my head or watever. SURPISEly i did not FUCK tt person up. aiya- watever. now i mux b MR NICE guy or moment ltr there will be ANTI JS SOCIETY. maybe tt time i will have depression or something la. to prevent all this have to stop COMMUNICATING? or HAVE FUN w THEM la.

my classmate esp the BOYS jux fucking petty la! GEt a LIFE kae. let take an example. today DAVID n JIA ZHEN was plying. i know i was at fault to together ply with JIA ZHEN to blk the door. i deserve a FUCKING PUSH i know. THEN i heard a loud BANG! i know his is angry thus i let go. THEN DAVID saw me a push me. THEN he got so FUCK up and started shouting wat u pissed me off. frm yesterday........ then he took his chairand smash it onto WEIWEI table. plastic shattered from her table. some pieces almost cut WF face. i got so shocked. i tot. i was the one tt make him got so fuckup. my heart was lik pumping damm fast. THEN some guys got hold of him. he intented to BEAT WEIWEI. the fact is ww and him always quarrel and they will alwys insulted eachother. david is really like a childish and no tolerance lor. he can said things abt peeps and ther peeps cannt said things abt him. HE alwys call peeps girl gay. i m one of the victim. i didnt smash his table. i was like WAT THE FUCK LOR. AND HE IS SUPER RACIST!. alt. im one but i do not do things tt insult other peeps infront of them la. he alwsy cry at the wrong thing ang wrong time la. Last time he cried is becus he lost his math result to arvin . i was like WTF!!!!! haix.

BAD MOUTHING again.... NEVERMIND.

i have some of mine FNN photo share with ur my ugly FOODs....



it is like FREAKING UGLY right. KNEW it.jus cannt compare with other peeps......

HAve your know tt FRIENDSTER HAVE changed. it is more COOL and nice. but everything is like so PUBLIC. everyone can see. including u post on ur blog. it is so eeeeeeeeeeeee.

WOOHOO` tired

TIRED. im so tired after FnN practical, guess wat time we ended. 5 something gg 6. OMG is like soooooooo damm LONG lor. imargine u STANDING for so long la. MUSCLEs i think all came out. HAHA. LOVE WF desert. so NICE! i LOVE it, abit disappointed w NUSU dish today cos it is diff frm the TOFU chessecake i ate last time. MISS tt taste... HEE.

MY FOOD FUCK la. SHIT, forget to take pic of it so i can show ur. NVM. i think miss fong will sent us.. or something la. HEE. FUCK! broke my nail when shaving the POTATO. not a big deal la BUT it HURTS!!! miss fong said my potato pudding NICE. but the FISH my mother brought is CONVIENCE FOOD!!! my marks was like the same as YU HONG la. alt i admit tt his FOOD look nice and his sushi.... NICE. haha BUT HOW CAN I LOSE TO HIM LA....

this morning i carried a big bag out things to sch like some garbage man, then almost kana bang by the car cause walk too SLOW. waaaahhha. NVM, now it okay.... FUCK. now is 7.28. GOD! forget to watch THE BRIDE again. S-O. diao.

F&N practical

TOMORROW is F&N practical, i was like prepare so much la! HOPE i just fucking pass the TEST and Miss FONG SEE some effort i put in la, MONEY.... BRAIN CRAKING to think of ideas....

CAn you believe it. NXT wk is chinese 'o'level. OMG! i cannt believe lor. HAIX! everything just SUCK in my life la.REcently is quite tired do not wish to blog so much.

i watch the show till episode 11 lei. it is nice cannt wait for the ending..... WAHAHA. irony. heee. ermerm. THE word just got so HOT nowaday. i started knowing this word when mr sham INTRO which appear in a compre. hahaha...

NO SLP.

WAHAHA- stupid me. Kaekae, recently i got addicted with this taiwan tv show call DEVIL BESIDE YOU. it is so damm nice; it is my jie intro to me one. Wahaha. now i only watch till episode 8. Yesterday i did not catch a slp cos of the show. QUA ZHANG ba! wahaha. it true, i dunnoe y, now i m still not very tired. (3am) heee....

Yang Chang Lin in the SHOW so pretty. wowww... i find tt mike(ah meng) in the show, the character abit like jerry yan in lui xing hua yuan. haha....

i go back to watch my show LOR.

CHANGE web/add

change web/add cos some FUCKER which i now tot. HATE him knew my blog. i dunnoe HOW the fucker know my blog. WHO cares la. jux fucking HATE him lor, HIS fuckin attitude. WHICH make me puke. FOr god sake la, said tt my attitude SUCK, like whose attitude is whose.... just cannt forget the QUARREL. oka. it is not a quarrel is he, himself FUCKINg himself. What the hell, when he is 'NICE' to u, he will say things infront of u which is nice but behine ur back he is badmouthing u. WTH lor. sooo many examples la. ME! KALWIN. being nice to him and behine his back was like HE SMELLS, LOOK! HIS UNDERWEAR! DUN TOUCH IT MAYBE GOT WORMS. i was like WTH lor, u are not very CLOSE to him one, how could u say those things.... WTH. during maths tuition yesterday i was like sitting with kalwin la. THEN kalwin invited him over. FUCK!- tt my reaction. THEN OUT WITH HIS BLOODY FUCKING MOUTH was i do not want to sit with a person who FILRT la. CHEEBYE! SO wat if i FILRT la, u aint not filrting w JL TOO. FUCK LOR. First time i got sdo FUCK UP with a person and tot. HATE HIM lor.

WAT the fucking problem with shutting his bloody mouth. WATEVER. enough i wish i will not post abt him again cos i do not wish the kind of person to get into my life.

WATEVER!!

TIRED EVERYDAY

Seems like my heading for this few day posts have some linking.... wahahaha. ARGH! Have a good news for myself, it shld also consider bad news la. HA- i pass my CHINESE w a C5. WTH. GET so low. MDM qua SET paper 2 till so hard tt she even admit herself. MOSt of us FAIL for the paper la. WTH. maybe this could test out standard or something. I cal. lei, for 'o' levels LA. i need to at least achieve b4 for every subject so tt can meet the min. of the low standard course. SIAN!!!!.

talk abt other things. HAVEn know my english result, excited. haha- jux hope i pass, dun ask for more. Have been slping at afternoon for DAYS. is like FUCKING TIRED, and when it come to NIGHT TIME, i FUCKING AWAKE. WHAT the PROMBLEM, with myself la. BECUMING VAMpires??? arggghhh- THIS tot. PISSED me off.......

BORING TUESDAY

Today i quite boring, nothing to do actually.... SURF the STUPID YOUTUBE but it is under maintenance, THEY Say is 800pm wat. SO ast jiu CLOSE liao. WTH/// HAIX. no one online, no show to watch..... NTH. SIAN ARGH.

FUCKING MONDAY

okay, as i knew it. It is a day to start with NOT ENOUGH REST. FUCK. yesterday was the hardest night tt i went thr in my LIFE. i m glad tt i survive thr, waha. ACTUALLY nth BIG LA. I just could not slp last night till 2am. CAN u imgarince flipping thr ur BED for more then 3 hrs. i was like THINKING abt many thinks la, but on the otherside just wish i can slp. Another reason is tomorrow i getting back the TEST PAPER, i noe i did BADLY but i just wish something can change la. WATEVER-it didnt. BUT AT last around 2 something , i fall asleep.

TODAY, i YAWN alot but i do not feel abit of TIRDNESS. wahaa. SOMETHING WRONG somewhere. haa. TODAY really SUX la- STARTED the week so badly, i do not know how m i gg to survive thr the REST OF THE WEEK. Wat i know is that the TIME is just PASSING me so quickly. I can not even BREATH. help... i know the result for SC PAPER 1, SC PAPER 3, MATHS, F&N. NONE i pass la. nope. i pass SC PAPER 1 by lUCK. fuck, the luck just did not go my way for thr REST of my paper. ARGH! i do not work HARD, LUCK also do not give a damm on me la.

SLPLESS night is killing me la tt what i have to say. PANDA eye starting to appear, morning become night time, night become morning time. MY FUCKING whole life was over TURNED. my bro brought a pair of CONVERSE shoe for 80 plus dollars. HOW i wish i will be the one who owned it. DAMM sia, it is nice, IT IS ALSO BROWN. u know... it is part of my FAV. colour. eeeeeeeeediot.

MONDAY is tomorrow

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QPzZSa3DVc&search=Bi%20rain
This one is Rain's escaping the SUN. Rain is gay at the dancing part with his tiny little cloth. wahaha. BUT the song is nice.

Waaaaaaa... Just like the SONG. escape frm the SUN to rise. then there will be no TOMORROW. the fact is cruel.!!! haix. dunnoe wat will be like tomorrow i noe it will be very chem. HAIX.

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hey, u jus fucking dun care abt my feeling when u say those words to me, do u noe how angry m i when u say everytime im alwys so bad. when i was trying to be good. when i say shhh, u jiu offline wat is this. hai, i dun wan say so much la, now i really gg to faint of high blood pressure....

FUCK sian the whole day la... nth to do only can watch south park.
share w ur.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ft8GB5nknKw&search=south%20park
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wrn6qM9a8zA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZsE4QlOLShg&search=south%20park
these three are the one i think is quite funny.
ya watever. SORRY/

HAAAA` it was a fun time at YOUTUBE. you u wat i found two grps of jap or korean band(either one, i cannt diff), oka, and include RAIN, they are like totally cool in their visual kei. let me share w ur.....

DBSK
magic castle
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fPvG2W6-JHc&search=DBSK%20-%20Magic%20Castle
triangle
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e2MiiASgig0&search=DBSK

SS501
Never Again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYCAyniWdrU&search=SS501%20never%20again
Fighter
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VM2d_T35kCw&search=SS501%20fighter
Snow Prince
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85SokMF3lAo&search=SS501%20snow%20prince

Rain
Sad Tango
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzeCPV4LAAw&search=sad%20tango

Everyone was like so cool, i nv ss501 ones but i heard their music was like damm cool. ADDICTED. For the DBSK magic castle saw their 'real' face was like abit ERM for me la. NOT v.shuai la. ya. haaaaa. wahha- kinda gay huh. WAHAHA- I M NOT.

;]

haha. last time forever to intro to ur where i find my lyrics. haha.
Http://www.geocities.com/musicpara/main
For chinese.
Http://www.seekalyric.com
For english.
haha- see im nice peep. Share w ur. wahaha.

This few days not so tired lei, cos during the exam period maybe use too much brain power or wat la- keep slping. wahaha. SO i think i will be dead when the result come out. SAD!!!!

WEBBY

haha- FOUND ALOTS OF GOOD WEBBY. Let me share w u guys.....
http://www.baidu.com/
-FOr this web, under MP3 u type in the song/author u can listen to the music-
http://www.myflashbox.sg/
-AS u can see frm my tagboard, it so cool la.-
http://www.youtube.com/
-u can watch video tt u kind if have la-
http://www.trent.blogspot.com/
http://www.xiaxue.blogspot.com/
-this was the one the campus superstar de dunnoe hu introduce in iweekly, if ur dun mind ur go in and have a look, something are quite nice, esp the SOUTHPARK video in XIAXUE blog-

haha- tt all=)......
sian right. yup i agree.
Have not been doing too well for the testes la- HAIX- today SS i dunnoe watswrong me MY F* mind- i did half way then everything any how do!!!! GOD! Sian; everything is gg to be so BAD!!