No return.

Want to hear my rants?
This is what i suppose to pose on last Thursday.
Bad news for me.
I failed my practical.
Yup, not once, but twice.
Yup the retake too.
CRAP. Look what I just did to my life.

Treat my rants as nuisance:
20'nov
"Starting from today I'll have a strong reason to quit Nursing, and thanks to you MDM.F!

I'm super duper disappointed in you. When you said that no one could hears you, and I'm that IDIOT to walk forward to you! And how you treat me? Where on earth you got those crazy ideas to penalise a student. The starting on the examination, you said that my tray is wet and am I going to start with it? I mean which other lecturer would say that, and my tray was barely wet! I have been always hearing- lecturers are there to help and not fail a student. From this incident, I really can see how lectuers are helping us, really.

I know it has been my fault to not realise HUMLIN (R) was Atrapid but by doing the first check I would have check with an staff nurse! AND COULDN'T you be MORE LIEN!(whatever it spells). The problem is when I was preparing, there was only 3 drugs there and how clever I thought I'm. Two of the drugs I know what they're therefore I took the last one which is the wrong one too! I don't know how much kindness you have, you claim that I'm a danger to the patients in the hospital and wonder why have I choosen Nursing. I'm telling you, I don't feel like being in the same career as you hypocite!

I was damn fustrated, and I kept using vugarities. A lectuer heard what I said and goes "Young man how could you use such an crude word" and I goes "Okay what the hell!", I almost caught a disapproval shake of his head, when he goes"take pride in yourself" I'm feeling damn lousy and there he goes lecturing me?!"

What had been done was done.
No return.
Not to blame my relationship,
but perhaps too much of it recently?
It's too addictive, I just can't quit.

BIG DAY

Tomorrow is my big day again.
Not that I'm getting married again, it's my Nursing laboratory exam again.
Sigh. Heard from some of my friends that they failed the test.
They're those who always pass the test and this time round, they couldn't make it.
And me... Sigh. Always have to end up retaking testes.
DAMN.
And now, here I'm using the computer and blogging.

BYE.

I'm in love.

Actually I wish to do some proper post, but I haven have the spare time to do so.
As you can see from the previous posts, which I just posted up, actually they were drafts, but I was lazy to continue...
Let me get this post started..
Time passes real quickly before I realized that I'm older.
Being 18 or not 18 by a day or two was a weird feeling.
Just like when you're days to 18 you're not allow to be in clubs or bars, but when you're 18 you're allow to be inside. Super retarded.
I have my best 18 birthday celebrations with my classmates, besties, and my baby.
My 'pre' and birthday parties was filled with surprises.
I love my friends and my love.
I love them organizing for me, I love them sacrificing for me, and I just love them.
My biggest birthday wish is to be filled with love everyday.

So far my wish have been coming true.
I'm LOVE, and hope to be love more.
My birthday party is over, maybe I'll tell your in details the next time.
:D sweet dreams people.

OOMM

Ya, I know. I haven been blogging too oftenly.
It's almost been a month since the last post.
It's not like I have nothing to post, but I'm lazy like always.
Soon I'll be 18, and you know what?
What you're going 18, you just simply say stuff like 'So what if I'm 18?'
You gonna murder someone? Cause you can be jailed now instead of being in the Boy's home?!
Life is just making me sad each day.
I don't feel a point or place the really need my presence.
So what's the big deal about being 18 or 28?
I believe it's not a big deal.
If REALLY I need to celebrate my birthday, I really wish to be simple.
I know you all will be like who is going to make it BIG, FANCY or LOUD for your birthday.
I know I know, just a tiny cute little reminder for MR JS.
I really don't wish to be remind that I'm still surviving in the cruel whole for almost 18 years.
MAD!
I'm being OOMM right now so don't bother.
(OOMM - Out Of My Mind) [Just wanna act big shot]