Saturday, November 11, 2006

PICTURES

A post just for picutres i took the last two weeks....
haha.
This small banana is so cute.
the black forest drink from Coffeebean
that's my nick on one of the drink frm coffeebean. JASON.

DERRICK! concentrating in study. haha.

Derrick with ms pan

Jia Jing
See! he is acting cute.

My paternal grandpa; Da gu; and my uncle.
Xiongxiong

My heart'll always belong to you!
xiong is pointing. woah...
he's NUDE!!!
Okay, lame post. bye.

Friday, November 10, 2006

go or dont go?

Finally the hectic week have ended. i left 4 testes, two days of a-maths, ond day F&N and chem & phy MCQ. i can sense that my freedom is getting closer closer. HAHA. Today my relative is organising charlet, for 3days 2nights. i don't know whether should i go or not.... my cousin kept calling me to go and stay for anight and return tomorrow....

So i don't know whether shoult i go or not. :[ still considering...

anyways, this two weeks haven been posting because quite busy with life. Let me update your.... haha, this weeks my life have been terrible! since sunday, the day before O, i kept LS-ing till yesterday..... Today i think is Fine liao. Most probably i got is food-posioning ba, keep feel like puking, then keep LS, then stomach keep very pain. haha. imagrine you ls for 5 days, how will you feel.... haha.

i think i dying so la, today i sore-throat..... haha.
SIAN, nothing to write about... BYE

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

holiday mood

im in the holiday mood already when my 'o' is starting in a few days, a part of me just hate it, when i have to force myself to study. Studying at home is a torture with so much distractions, and my mother.... forget it. Recently, xiongxiong caught my attention again, he must be sad, being left to to collect dust. So yesterday i wash it, not manually but by washing mashine. HAHA, SAD, it is being tortured! TODAY im not going to write a thousand essay and make everyone puke!!! haha.

BLOGGER is always going against me.... haix.
nvm. show your my xiongxiong next time. haha.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

BORING

Today was like so boring.... i started the day badly. i woke up at 12 something and i skipped the social-studies which is suppose to held at 8.30. haha. im bad, although i saw nusu smses and call, i just ignored it and continue my sleep.

anyway today i BORING, the only thing that entertain me is the radio, because today the Global Chinese Music Awards is life played on the radio... haha. I dont know why this year im so addicted to it, hearing the radio is like im in where it is held. haha. anyway the big news is SUN YAN ZI won the singapore most popular singer or what la. This is the 4th time she take this award... HAHA.

HAHA, anyway as i promised to show your the photos i took yesterday:
This is what matt drew for me on the last day of school, haha, but he didnt mean anything la. Just a drawing, i envy those people that are very talented in drawing.... haha. i wished i could be one of them, but as you see from my previous post, my drawing is like childish, but matt and Bear do draw very well. haha.

the poem i made yesterday/ i hope it can be seen. please do comment, says anything that you feel. woah.

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OMG! when i edit till here, the person who is singing next is guo mei mei - bu pa bu pa. OMG, haha. dont know what to say. she is the 3rd favourite singer in singapore lei, erm, and she got an award! and she really bu pa bu pa lei, said her thank you lines sooooo long....! erm, yang chen ling also not as long as her's.
HAHA, this is my SMILELY LEG, say hi......

I ROCK to the core. i always do. haha.

the envelope, i know im not as creative as matt and bear. but... haha. i think it is accpectable.

the letters frm shirley

SPONGEBOB sticker!!!!

SPONGEBOB with special effect from my phone. haha.
YANG CHEN LING came to singapore!!! :]]]]]

letters frm jie

i never notices that the cable tv my uncle subcribe have korean show, guess who is this??
It is RAIN!!! can you believe it, he cutted his hair!

and... the singing turns dramatic after he chnaged and sing the second song.

YES! this is clearer.... it is RAIN. still in the dramatic mood. haha.

Sing like opening a concert! must changed so many set of clothes.

anyway, im so addicted to vivian and coco recently.... haha. i cant decide which album to buy, i wanted both of them badly. haha, if someone buys one of them for me, i will surly marry him/her right away, regardless he is gay or she is les. HAHA.
i forgotten what i am going to say next..... anyway. good luck for everyone's 'o'/
BYE!!!
haha, i remembered liao, please go to XX's blog... the pictures are so woah~!! her photoshop's skill are so woah~! i finally know what makes her blog so famous, is her photoshop skills that helps right? i wished i have the skills.
seriously bye...
WTH, blogger dont lei me published i cannt BYE, haha.
yes! the new female singer who gets is Jin Sha, the new male singer is ??? he kept singing and no one said the name. haha. i will try to publish again... that guy is Lin yu zhong, got heard before but never see before. haha. STILL CANT. wtf.

Friday, October 27, 2006

madness crying...

opps, i did it again.
i meant i cried today again, i cried for things that i should'nt be; for things that are suppose to be let go. im 16 and im crying in my bedroom like an idiot, the tears nearly wet my bed till it looks like i have urinated on my bed. i just cannt let go on certain things, i once said i didnt cry on 'that day' bec i didnt feel like, and i fegined tears on 'that day.' But now.... i cried so hard because of the things happened on that say, and that is really from the bottom of my heart. i seriously miss my old man, during my sobbing moments i suddenly recalled the times with my old man. i remembered that there was this once when my family(with my old man) when to chinatown during the newyear season. it was an enjoyable moment.... but now thinking back.... i didnt have much momeries with my family. it is pretty depressing....
the other reason i cried because i feel like im a maid in the house, i know that i should be helping my mother as she works so hard for me..... but at times im lazy to do housechores but instead of calling my brother to do, she called me - she knows he wouldnt do it. today my mother was like asked me to hang the clothes because she too tired to do so. i mean i have been hanging, folding and putting the f.clothes and im tired of it too. thus, i dragged and dragged... and it comes to she could not take it and started shouting.... and lastly i still did it with everyone unhappy. i hate regreting on things i had done, like after ingoring my mother, in the spilt second i will felt guilty. Today im also this '__' close to end my life, haha, i will take it as a joke now. Due thinking too much f.things in life that are happening on me, im tired of living. i know it's imbecile still having the idea of ending your life when you are consider half-mauture compared to an adult. But somehow the feelings just urge from your heart to your f.brain and the devil inside started his evil deed when im feeling lost. he started showing me 'the path' that i should choose.Luckily the angel inside me manages to defeat the f.devil, and i survived.
Anyanyanyway.... i made some poems. haha, my first time trying to compose poem, and i did three. PLEASE DO GIVE ME COMMENTS FOR IMPROVEMENTS. haha, i know i shouldnt be doing this, but it is actually a good way to divert your mind. haha but the poems is also mainly about, you know... haha.

FORGET IT, the uploading is slow... and it still cant work after umpteen attempts. i'll upload them tomorrow....

Today i did crazy things again instead of torturing my body by cutting myself, i drew on myself. Last time i used lotion, this time, i used pen. haha. show your the picture tomorrow because the bluetooth device is with my uncle and he is sleeping. HAHA, people should do my way right... instead of hurting themselves.

i learnt to protect myself instead of hurting myself.
falling is a process of standing right?
it is important to stand up when you fall...
BYE mortal, sound like im a celestial beings.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Bright bright morning....

REPOSTED :]
It's a beautiful morning when i still have to go school for FNN, initially dont feel like going but today is the last lesson with Ms Fong. And she'll not be teaching next year lei, sian. I don't know why alot of peeps dont like her, but she is quite nice...... haha.

it's relaxing sitting in front of the computer and listen to songs, and after tons of rainfall the haze's PSI finally drop to 50 and below, which is good. SAD!, after 'o' will not have any chances of meeting any classmates, teachers, cleaner, tuckshop aunties and uncle.... haha. Sadly i dont have the courage to take photos with them. As a STM person, im still glad that i have most of my memories lies on secondary school's days, haha. At least, to me it is a begin where people starts growing..... since im i sec1, i think i have changed alot, from good to bad from bad to worst. HAHA; stop getting emotional. which you guys probably thinks im insane.

talks about things that your dont care ba, yesterday i drop my phone again. It suddenly when black screen and restart by itself, and when it restart the whole sreen was white without the Nokia logo. I thought it's the end of my phone, but somehow after some "CPR" given to it, it finally relive but the phone transformed for bad to worst. Which is bad, i dont wish to change phone so early as im still not financially ready. anyway, tell you a great new, my STM illness have made me forget most of the spellings, sometimes for just a simple word i can think for it for a long time. Gosh, sigh. And no one have correct me, should be probably instead of proberly right? how imbecile im. Probably one day when i woke up from my sleep, i suddenly realize i have forgotten everything.... that'll be a terrible feelings right.

kae la, spare you from my craps.
BYE.

yah, bye my head. HAHA, decided to add more infro of my life. Have you come to a point of life when you suddenly feel like you at totally at lost, or you just wish to sit down and cry your heart out. I do, frequently. I hate myself being so weak; to show anyone the weaker side of me; to get bullied by others; to get teased; to be said. Who will like to be treated badly anyway? i believe no one with a right mind wanted that. I do believe in horoscopes, albeit i always tell people not to be too superstitious, but i actually do it myseld. i found that sometimes what horoscope have analysis it could be quite true. Like they always said scorpio are normally people who very emotional, and hates to be said or what. Like they gave examples like sometimes when scorpio are said that they look inpropriate in the clothes, they will be sulk about it the whole. I think it is quite true from my experences. Haha.

Anyway, i felt that it is very true that scorpio is quite emotional(from my experience la), they can change the emotion swiftly. From happy to sad, or vice versa. Today, i was like.... with my mother in coffee bean in the phone, she sounded like i was playing with my friends instead of studying. A person with a right mind will know what is right to do on the right time right? but... the trust between my mother and i after almost 16 is still not there yet, i find it depressing. Do your mother complain too? like you kids always not helping me with the housechords when you did behine their backs. And when you said it.... the TRUTH THINGY again. What can i say? did i lied to her alot of times, i do but it is in the pass. Sigh, forget it, not point complaining here when nothing can be help. Back to the previous point, that that moment when she hangs the phone.... my mood changed, i felt hurt.... i mean why parents don't understand, i don't know is it because they don't understand me, or i heard something else. Did i not care about her, i reflected. sorrowness overwhemled me from head to toe. there is a song from simpleplan that goes like this..... do you ever feel like breakingdown? haha, i just feel like shouting "yes! im breakingdown!" to them. i hate thinking of problems! i made me lose my hair; my brain cells.... i have already have shortage of them, and im losing them. Good gracious!

Songs do affect feelings right? yup, let me answer myself. I always i have this habit of listening to sad song when im sad... that really sadistic right? But if you think it twice, who will like to listen to those rock song and get groovy with it when you are feel low. that's feign emotion right - when you are sad you tries to be happy, and when you are happy you tries to be sad. I just do it my way - listen to sad song and cry my heart out. Craps about me again which your don't care......

i didnt take any pictures recently of my friends because im tired of doing it, haha, they are saved. But i still took pictures of boring stuff... wth, blogger seems to know that im posting pictures which are LAME, thus they tried their best to be lack and prevent me from posting. Speaking of LAME, the english book which shirley lent me(supposly to be about O's essay) but i come across words like lame, good gracious, what an ass..... erm, is this words allowed? i doubt it. anyway it is quite useful if you read all the essay and make use of it.... to improve your english.

Yes, my class, dont is look clean an aint messy at all. EFFORT from me of course (if not i will post about this) and syidah and abdullah. Great mind thinks alike as people always said. A, S and me thinks that on the last day of the school, we should make the class presentable before we left the school. Starting from next year, i don't wish to return to this school for the wrong reason.... haha, starting to have a unbearable feeling.

after repeating twice, now my name is TINGSU or whatever.


probably she's too pissed off by my bad articulation, and she wrote CB(R) on my drinks. haha, im laughting because i twisted the meaning of the CB she wrote.i know it is not CB im thinking about,haha, the (R) probably means a rubbish.... woah` C... B... rubish. Nice uh`.

Suling's drink and mine; her's is the ultimate and mine's ice-blended caramel with cream. (but phone) haha, speaking of this lousy phone, sometings it just freaks me out when it when missing, though i always complain and complain but it and i know that i love it alot. haha.

and after visiting my cousini stole this photo from her blog. sigh, of all photos she must be a f.funny foto of me in her blog. anyway this is took months ago. it was a enjoyable moment, serectly tell your that was my first time singing in k-box. IT's embrassing.....

(click to enlarge) i don't know that bloggers at blogger are suppose to age below 12. OMG, shocking news, but people who blogs are mostly above 12 right? like xx.....

if you loves philosophy or what try this website.... http://onefortruth.blogspot.com/
i love the quote of the day#2
"Truth is the cry of all, but the game of the few."George Berkeley, 18th century philosopher after whom UC Berkeley (and the town) were named.

though im not really sure of what i meant but somehow i seems to get it. ironical you may said but i know it myself.

End of the day with a lengthy post.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

THe last day of school...

If you guys are given a choice to live in a country where it is forever sunny and a country is forever snowy, which one of it will your choose?
For me, i will choose the country where is forever sunny, why? your may asked. Close your eyes and imargine both country. The sunny country is always giving the warm feelings, it seems like life is good there. it gives you the warm feelings that i wanted. However in the snowy country is always giving the cold feelings. Living in a cold country is a torture to me, it seems like living in an emotionless country. With friends, family..... blah.
SEEMS like im talking craps again.

Anyway, today is the last day of school! so fast? When i came to school today, i still never thought that today is the last day of school. But in the day, news spreaded to my ear, then i realised that today is the LAST DAY. sigh, today will proberly is the last time im meeting most of my classmates. Anyway, today there's still a lesson on F&N, still can meet some of them. HAHA, yah-hor still got 'o' right.

whatever, but today my occupation is not student but paparazzi. HAHA. took tons of photos today.
have your try the oreo waterstick. It is quite nice, it look big but it is not. it comes in a packet of 18sticks(i think, cant remember)

Look at wong feng compo! good english, haha. 20/30 lei, i dont think i will ever get this result.


upcoming is FRIENDS.... last photos. haha - sounded like they're dead or im going to die.
an eye of abdullah and big face of hanisah.

poseing uh?

he is pissed! i kept snapping at him. haha. erm, hows beside?

David; alester; yx; gilbet(gill the bird)

Mohammad Daniel(haha, look at his skin colour! that's how cm tease him) with his black mole.

that's legendary david who i always talk about in my blog, with the famous weiwei hair. (f* the handphone! see extra effect!)

KALWIN with his erm*!

try to hold matt's hand uh?

WHAT's with the finger toking?

again? with matt and the bear.

hilarious! dimaz; hamiz; satish; kalwin.

yongqing and gimp peng.

a accident shot of ruiqi. LOOK! my fone is giving me speacil effects again.

syahidah with her finger. HAHA.

shengchang...

kerui and opps! is that sally and szeying?

that's kerui drawing, a protail of ms fong. HAHA, lets compare, judge by your eye. haha. anyway today kerui told me something about the PSI, haha. he said psi stands for PEOPLE SCOLD INDONEASIANs. haha. which means the higher the psi is means alot of people are scolding indoneasian. haha.


look how attentive they're during weemeng's lesson. haha.


i was holding my phone in my hand and i ran in the class after fail attempt to ran away from ms sasi lesson. and he caught me and he asked me to gave him the fone. AND how lame he was 5mins later when he left the class he return to me.

haha, everyone ran away after ms sasi left the class awhile. haha, i was like stuck inbetween my decision. want to run or not. haha. but i end up not running. HEE, im guai kia.

bye, guys. last pic! my sexymouth! artistic. woah!