One stop place.

GOOD BONDING! (WITH KPOP TOO)

2010-05-06T00:35:00.017+08:00

(He is so cute that I just want to post this with no reasons)

IT's my off day again!
Off days are good, which means you can bond with people and not boring work.

Today I had a bad start, I have a bad headache since I wake up.
I think it's because I slept at 5am watching videos again.
I'm getting old, I don't even have the body to stay up. :q

I went banking with my mother in the afternoon.
I had a great time bonding with my mother, I love talking to mother.
Out of the blue, I said I wanted to buy 4D, and my mother agreed!
HAHAHA!
And we bought 2361 and 9054, and I just check the results, sadly we didn't win any money. :q
HAHAHA! $8 wasted.

In the late evening, I went to collect graduation attire with my BFF.
I don't like my graduation attire, the colour is awful.
I don't know what the style of most graduation attire, I just don't like the colour of this.
But thinking about the scene when the announcer announces your name and going up stage and collect the "certificate", and the second when everyone claps and woo~ really attracts me.
At that moment you really feel that you're graduating or graduated.

It's really been long since my BFF and I chill and eat.
I really enjoy and love the moments.
It's good to have them in life.
I had a long talk with M after we part goodbyes with f and friend.
I seriously think G is a JERK, I can't stand being maligned.
OMG LIFE!!!
Even my working partner sometimes are bitches who always malign, I'll talk about that the next time.

After leaving them, I went to find Byeol.
I truly must learn to appreciate.
yes, I must.

OMG.
I'm really in love with F(X) - Nu Abo
SUPER DAMN COOL.
I love their Hairstyle!
WATCH THIS:
The full song will be playing as you read my blog.
More interesting some cool fans made the song with Shinee MTV and they also change the tune of it to "male version" of it. DAMN COOL!
WATCH THIS:

Gummy had her new song released too!
It's super addictive too! I lIKE~

The MTV of the song was starred by Kim Hyun Joong!

Speaking about pretty, After School Gahee has made one of the top in my list!
LOOK AT HER MAN!

WATCH her dance move, super wow:
She's just so attractive!

I LOVE KPOP!
SUPER ADDICTIVE!
I CAN GO ON AND ON...

Hello

2010-04-08T19:51:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
Today is my off day again.
Recently have been staying up till 2am, and that cause me to be lethargic in the day.
Decided to quit this staying up habit.
CAUSE I WANT TO SLEEP ENOUGH, HAHA.

Today went to visit my father at Guang Ming Shan, because it's Qing Ming.
We brought foods and some paper necessities for him.
Then I decided to Bua Buay to see whether he recieved or eat the things.
I was amazed that all the answer was yes, and I'm contented.
After which I went shopping with my mother at TPY and Sembawang.
I had a good bond with my mother today and I like it.
:D

I WANT HOLIDAYS!

2010-04-01T00:13:00.003+08:00

SHIT I MISS TALKING TO QIANHUI BEFORE SHE TAKE OFF TO KOREA!
STUPID WORK, WHICH TAKE FOREVER TO DO CLOSING!

HAHAHAHA!
I'll MISS YOU QIANHUI!
(See I'm so nice to blog about YOU!)

LIFE IS SO BORING!
I WANT TO GO ON HOLIDAYS TOO!
TOO BAD!
I HAVE TO WORK FOR EXTRA CASH!
:C

SHORT POST

2010-03-29T23:42:00.005+08:00

HELLO!
I'm back after afew days missing in actiion.
HECTIC is the word I always use for life ever since I'm working.
Since last Saturday my mother come back from China, I have been working full shift till today.
TIRED!
...and since last Sunday, I having this stupid rashes thingy over my body, it's super itchy.
I wonder it's sensitive or some stupid bug has been biting me- gross!
MAD ITCHY NOW!
Look at my hand!

Can you imagine it's not just my hand having the rashes!
CRAZY!

Saw my mother photo that she took during her China trip, super FUNNY!
SPOT my mother! My fourth auntie and her is super FUNNY!

I'm so tired now... heading to sleep.
GOOD NIGHT!

Things I never say:

2010-03-27T01:57:00.002+08:00

I should start sleeping early, if not I'll be living a owl lifestyle again.
What I never told your this week:
1. My mother went to China for holidays.
Happy for her, she never been out of Singapore or ever board a airplane since she was born, more importantly she has not take any long break(one week) since she started her job.
I really hope she has an awesome time there, totally missing her now.

2. My Ipod touch was sent to service.
I didn't blame Byeol for spilling the water.
After all it's was an accident.

3. Today my brother requested me not to sleep me my room and I agreed.
He brought a she home, and they spend lots of time in the room.
Wonder what could they be doing?
SEX? Seems like.
(hope this will not be read by him) :X

TOMORROW MORNING SHIFT.
I'M HALF DEAD HERE!
BYE!

A letter to byeol:

2010-03-25T00:14:00.003+08:00

To Byeol:
Life have been stressful.
I feel like a freak having to control and shape you.
I no longer feel like it's the right thing to do.
After coming two years, it's seems like disappointment is much greater than the happiness.
I feel exhausted.
During this two years, most of the time, I'll frown whenever I see you. ( It's a bad thing to do)
I don't feel like a boyfriend but a personal grooming teacher.
I really hope I can be a good boyfriend and treat you like how others are doing.
But it just seems that I no longer smile upon looking at you.

After bottling up since don't know when, I decide to confront you again today.
Things that you said and promise I really hope you could keep and words.
I'm not sure will this last...
I really hope it do...
(PS:I know you have been reading)
★

I just satisfied my craving.

2010-03-23T23:28:00.004+08:00

Life is sad when you don't satisfied your craving.
On the journey back from work, I had a hard time deciding to eat MAC or not.
Crazy enough for a guy to think that much, in the end I succumbed to my craving.
I'm LOVING IT!
It's been months since I last ate MACDONALDS.
Eventually after the craze of MAC during secondary school, I moved on to KFC.
I'm not a big fan of MAC during poly life, unless being a cheapo- thinking that the price of a MAC meal in NYP is cheaper than the meal outside, I'll eat it.
Which most of my lunch are either MAC or Western foods, because I'm UNHEALTHY!

It's a lazy day to work.
How boring can life be?
For the money, we work like cows.
Cows are being controlled, they are force to do what they wouldn't like to do.
But for the sake of their stomach, they have to pretend that they'll enjoying every moment of their life and give their life away..
Now that's exactly how my life is, pretentious.
Pretend to like everyone, anything, and anyhow.

THAT'S LIFE!
:C
OFF to enjoy my You tube session!
BYE!

A new beginning!

2010-03-23T01:05:00.006+08:00

Decided to start blogging again.
It's been very very long since I last posted.
It's time to recap on life since I last left it hanging here...

My last post was posted last year, and it's march 2010 now!
Life pretty much flies when you didn't even notice.

What happen over this time when I didn't post:
1: I passed my PRCP! (CONGRATS TO MYSELF, hurray!)
2: I got an Ipod touch on my birthday last year. (I love it!)
3. I got a FULL time job at Massimo Dutti after my attachment. (Just begining to work, barely a month)
4. I'm in a relationship for coming two years. (Byeol)
5. I'm waiting for the enlistment letter to serve the country.

Pretty much that's all for the major events that you need to know.
I hope after I started this post, I'll constantly post again, and hope it'll be another new beginning my my life. :D

Today slacked at home the whole day, was my off day.
Was upset that the computer wasn't working on my off day, but after trying umpteen times, it worked again. R-tard, opps. :D
I pray hard that it'll not give any problem unnecessary again!
After in the night, went for movie with Byeol.
We catch 'Remember Me', cast by Rober Pattinson and Emilie De Ravin, and love the plot of the movie.
Something that will cause you to think about life.
I was filled with many emotions during and after the movie.
I'm not sure whether is it a real life story from 911 victim's family, it just saddens whenever I think about the people who had suffered from the terrorist attacks.
What are the terrorists thinking about, which really wonders me!
What's the point of terrorism?
What's the benefit of killing?
Can someone enlighten me?
Questions just pop in my head, and I shall leave the question hanging...
Slight digressing, actresses acting with Robert Pattinson isn't much of those pretty gorgeous look?
I feel more of those 'brotherly' feeling- 'whazzup man!'
You think so?

Emilie De Ravin

Beverly Hills

It's time to have some sleep.
Tommorrow I'm working late shift!
Bye, signing off.
(should start reading to catch up with my language.)

I'm STRESS!

2009-09-02T00:56:00.002+08:00

When things just don't go your way, what will you do?

This year my way of handling with stress is to EAT!
And after eating what normally comes is weight gain, but now... who cares about weight?
But still... I can't help myself to complain that I seriously need some diet or stress mangement.
MY GOD!
I'm STRESS!
Hormonal changed!
SHITSHITSHITSHITSHIT!

once again NR0722

2009-08-28T01:38:00.003+08:00

.... just make me wanna SHOUT!!!
I'm going to SHOUT for the joy and uneventful situation that happened today.

Today is the last day of the EXAM, and which means if I pass all my papers and attachment, it will be the last day of school. :D
How? When I type this... I already start miss my group mates... I will miss NR0722!
Let me be corny for a moment , without each and everyone of your, NR0722 will not be form.
You all taught me teamwork; the love for one and other, and the support to give when one needs help. You all have helped me through my Polytechnic life and I'm glad to have your.

Muack! Muack!
Big love to you all!
(For those who are not in the pictures, don't worry I still love you all!)

....
CHEERS TO EVERYONE!
Hope everyone be happy every single day!
:D

Not a productive day.

2009-08-23T21:34:00.003+08:00

I'm not making today productive at all...
I'm suppose to study hard for my test and not online and doing trashy stuff like FB-ing or watch more Korean shows.

I still have 3 upcoming exams!
One tomorrow, the other on Tuesday and the last one at Thursday.
Must keep reminding myself back to study if not I'll be dead tomorrow!
I'll not say year 3 life is freedom as it's coming to an end.
But more stress is compiling.
I just hope this year will end faster and in a good way! :D

Before army, I hope I still have some spare time to learn driving or Korean language.
Driving seems like it's a must for most guys.
My mother kept saying the my brother has passed, and I should go and take too.
Sigh... Imagine I take driving lessons this year... I think I'll go mad.
Korean language because I kept watching Korean shows and kept reading the subtitles.
Sometime there is shows that you just want to watch, but there isn't any subtitle.
Therefore, feel like learning the language myself.

HAHA.
Now I only say only, you just read first.
See next time will I really do it...
HAHA. :D
BYEEE!

HELLO:}

2009-08-22T14:19:00.002+08:00

Hello people, it really been a long since I last posted.

My last post was talking about graduation day, and so fast and so quick that my lessons had came to an end... and I had already taken two of my final exams.

It soon coming to the end of Year 3 life in NYP, time really flies.
Really couldn't imagine that I have passed my year 1 and 2 life.
What I will really miss after I graduate will be those friends I met in poly, it really nice to be NR0722. Although we may have some disputes over the pass, things have eventually changed. We matured into a better person and love one another more.
Still remembers that that was once when I overslept for my presentation! The whole group helped me out! They stalked time for me and pretended to go to the wash room.
See, how can I not love them!
I really will miss them...
Hope we can have charlet again and have fun together!

After the final year exam, next I will have a 6weeks holidays, then proceed to attachment in ET, OT, GERON, then two weeks holidays and PRCP!
It freaks me when there is so much attachment to work with.
I just hate the thought of failing them and having to repeat the modules.
Especially when I love to sleep so much and my GERON attachment is at SIMEI!
Sembawang to Simei?! How far is that?
And if I'm on morning shift what time I have to wake up?!
Sigh.
Attachment's life is crappy!

BYEE.
Have to study for 3 more Adult Nursing exam!

Graduation day

2009-05-26T23:34:00.006+08:00

Today went to help out in the Nursing graduation!
As usual, people tend to have their commencement speech long and boring enough to make everyone in the hall fall asleep.
Therefore, school should be creative and innovation by make a different and invites celebrity to make a commencement speech
And who you want to see during your graduation day?
For me, I want to see Ellen DeGeneres!
She is damn cool and funny!

Watch this:

I want to have her during my graduation day!
Soon, and very soon, it'll be our turn!
Omg, time really flies so fast!
Can't believe and imagine that I'm already year 3 and going to PRCP soon!

And going NARFA soon!
Recent have been training hard for it.
Don't be surprise to see a muscular JS!
haha.

Cheers.
JS

The money or being frictional?

2009-05-20T22:17:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!
The money or being frictional?
Which one would you prefer?

I wonder would Mediocorp copy this kind of game show?
IT WOULD BE INTERESTING!!!!

shut up!

2009-05-19T18:54:00.001+08:00

I F.GOING TO KILL THE NEXT HUMAN ALIVE WHO SHOUTS AT ME!

Good thing today pass my lab, if not...

BYE!

J

2009-05-14T19:19:00.004+08:00

J is for Jingsheng.
J is for Jubilant.

Jubilant Jingsheng.
(Still remember this game that I played with NR0722.)

Today after school went to rhu's school.
Intended to study there, but end up lazing around.
I still haven't learn my lesson.
The aftermath of not studying is going to be suicidal!
Crazy J, please study.

Nursing life is scary and stressful!
I so don't want to be a NURSE!!!

Practical lab examination is coming again, the exam that I'm most fearful of.
I really don't wish to fail anymore lab.
It's a disgrace and shameful experience.
I really need to study hard, so no more FB for these few days!!!
PLEASE J, WORK HARD ONCE AND FOR ALL!

BYE!
HAHA.(ain't I good at this?)

Love me,
J.

I'm back!

2009-05-13T04:35:00.003+08:00

I'm BACK FOR GOOD!

I just learn a new language today!
It's call the F'language.
Howfow arefare youfou peofeoplefle?
It's so readable when you type out!
I'm going to talk like this from now onwards!

It's very early in the morning and I haven sleep yet.
Cause I'm watching the "lettuce couple" on 'We got married'.
Sweet! They just pass their 100days anniversary of their wedding and they went to have their wedding photoshots.
COOL!
I love their wedding photos!
I hope mine will be cooler than their's in future!
haha.
I think I shall be back for more posting, meanwhile just stay with this skimpy post.
Good morning people!
I'm turning in!

Getting back to one.

2009-03-10T03:28:00.002+08:00

don't they have a good sense of humour and sex drive at such a young age?
i wish to be like them too, carefree.
hahahahahahahahahahahaha- Madness of laughter!

it's never or always too late?

2009-03-10T01:02:00.006+08:00

It's always a little too late to say so, when one doesn't know how to love till everything is gone. I learnt my lesson and it's time to show my outcome , cherish, is the word.
I shall never let myself be in any state of regret, and this shall and has to be a promise to myself.

Recently many things are happening around and on me, it just seems like everything is falling apart.
Being pretentious is the only way to hold things and survive and I shall obey as long as things can last.
But how long can it last, I just can't be pretending forever...
I never want to see when things get to be forever never.
sigh! Blind me man.
I think I made craps out of my life and I don't know how to fix them.
Effing hell, I'm tired of myself.

I only know one solution to my problems, it's to drink my stomach out.
I miss drinking.

??am I seriously thinking to much, or that's the way how the world is revolving now, or am I too out-of-date now?
Guess so, I never remember the date I'm living in.

Only I understands what I'm trying to say, readers don't think too much.
The end to emo-ness!! Cheers!

I cut my hair last week.
It's a combination of shortness and long-ness.
It's either you hate it of love it.
(and what crap is that?)
I call it the beng-ness.
Supplied two photos for reference, and figure it yourself!

Spotted: JS is MAD!

2009-02-16T09:04:00.007+08:00

Spotted in school at 6.37am JS, the crazy boy who seems to get everything wrong, even his own examination dates.

A: Seriously how stupid can he gets?
B: He reached school at what?! 6.37am!!!
C: What an unearthly timing to reach school?!
D: I think that he still thinks that he still studys in Primary school.
E: And apparently with his intelligent, he should study in one.
F: How funny can he be? He is effing scammed by his own brain!! LOSER!

It sounds sooooooooooooooo retarded when I type all these out,
and it also sounds like I'm mentally-ill with on going split personally.

I'm MAD!

I need stress reliever now!
whatever is that, I need it now.
I SAY I NEED NOW!
NOWW!
NOWWWW!

>CAN YOU BE F.MATURE JS!!!
>It's not funny at all, GROW UP!!

Post V day.

2009-02-14T23:52:00.020+08:00

How's your V day today? Have you not sleep like me yesterday just to make your little gift for your sweet heart? Haha. I did.
I was wondering what to give her when February announced it's arrival.
February always reminds me of couples, and it's most probably because of this special day.
I was thinking of a cheap and meaningful present.
At first I was thinking of "making our picture" on a chocolate, but when I intended to do...
The shop who I have seen with this creative idea was gone.
(If anyone happen to see this shop, please tell me!)
So in the end I thought of making of my own roses.
I searched on Youtube "How to make paper roses?"
and there's a lot of ways in doing it...
Then I came across this video, which is very cool.
It makes my idea easy and workable.

but making this paper roses don't come easy...
You need a lot of essentials which I don't know where to get.
Then I remember my favourite shop Daiso which has everything in the world to my believe.
contrary to my believe, most of the things I needed I bought it from there expect...
this:

and I don't know what it's call.
"Green sticky tape to make flowers?"
(anyone has better ideas?)
At last I got it with the help of my mother.
A BIG THANK YOU to her!!!
Without this, nothing can be done, luckily she understands me.
Other than that... the rest of the things can be easily found at Daiso.

Coffee filter

Scissor

the stems

So with all these... you are really to start:
first you need to cut the templates of the flowers,
you can get it from the Youtube video.
http://images.marthastewart.com/images/content/web/pdfs/pdf3/coffeefilterrose.pdf
Speaking of these template I had a very hard time, finding a printer to print it.
First I went National Library thinking that they have computer and printer, but you can't use their USB ports so there goes my plan A of use my thumbdrive.
So I thought of assessing to my National Library account to the internet to download it. But I forgotten my account. There goes my luck again, plan B gone!
Then, I thought of the Fuji flim developer has got printer, I asked them whether could I print my files from thumbdrive. They said yes but the first piece is 3 dollars and the next is 1 dollar. O.M.E.G! 3 dollar for a bloody piece of paper... (roll my eyes to the max!) But thinking that I need that so urgently, I agreed. And thank god, I'm not scam by them, my files couldn't be opened. Plan C is a scam!!
Out of no choices left, I thought of going by to National Library again to ask for help. I was able to retrieve my ID and password but afterwhich I need to have a maraton with the time. By the time I settled infront of the computer it was already 2045hours, and they closes at 2100hours. MADNESS! I searched through Youtube for the "very-hard-to-find-video" for almost ten minutes, and I thought I was luck, but they couldn't open PDF files too. GESS! Double failure of plan B!
Plan Z works!
The very last thing I could think of was to trace the coffee filter with the open PDF file to the exact size of the coffee filter on the monitor. I work! But I don't know what damage does it do to the monitor.
A very long story!
Thankfully I got my templates and here they are...

The require amount of them.

and with the guide of the video...

With everything on hand, you shall make your first ever paper rose!
Beautiful. I like~

and when you work overnight, this is what you get...

By the time I do finish it's already 0800plus in the morning...
Time files so fast. And I couldn't funtion much, and took this crazy photo.

Now you need some painting for it.

Wrapping up, you need wrapping papers...

This is my gift for her. XO woots!

And her gift for me; excellent.

ROYCE!
I love!

People, hope everyday will be as sweet as V day.
That's all for the day.
Good night~!

Happy V Day!

2009-02-14T01:23:00.004+08:00

Happy V day everyone!
It's the day of the year again, when couples will go out to celebrate their day,
and singles will curse and swear at every couple that walk pass them on the street.
(okay, that's not everyone, that's only for me)

So when single become couple-d you have to think of ways and ideas to make your girl happy especially when you're a guy. I have killed a million brain cells for thinking what to do for her.
Being a man is so tough. Haha.
But I'm happy though, just love to whine.

A little movie clip for your to enjoy//
Romance but beside the point... there is 3rd person involved.
A famous clip by Tom Curise 2001: Vanilla Sky.
I totally love it, I bet after you watch this you'll not have affair anymore.
http://www.tv-links.eu/show_link.php?data=OTAyNjM=
(press cancel when there says "www.tv-links.eu is now FREE")
(then click "Click here to access the movie link")

anyway wish me luck then, hope tomorrow will be a good day.
XoXo to all of your!

Life's good!

2009-02-12T21:51:00.003+08:00

LG is great okay?
Life's GOOD!
haha. Forget what I said yesterday about whatever.
You can make Muveeeeee out of it! Yippy.
Maybe I can change my Display picture to Muvee too!
Don't be jealous. I'm just so good at it.
Moooooo~

Today was the first day of the paper, it turns out pretty well.
The first time I could write more than half a page for SAQ.
But the MCQ was nah... difficult and tricky.
7 more days to go!
TAN JING SHENG, GO GO GO!!!

Some regrets

2009-02-11T00:48:00.004+08:00

Suddenly I'm so sick at my new phone: Lg kc910 Renoir.
Not that I'm showing off now, just that I realised I never mention this in my blog.
I'm so sick that the theme is forever black and white albeit they are my favourite colours.
Isn't it so sick that you can't change your theme at all; it's forever them?!
I seriously think Lg people can be more innovative, creative or artistic in that sense.

Now looking through my friend's Facebook photo.
I really hate my school for not having any prom nights.
I want to go to PROM!!!
Isn't it the most important thing in youth?
Effing school.

ARGH! BLAH.
I'm so crazily mad now, for god knows reason.
and I am still surfing the internet like nobody's business.
TAN JING SHENG!!! YOUR EXAM IS IN TWO DAYS!!!!

backtolife.

2009-02-08T23:02:00.013+08:00

Yippie, I'm back to create life out of this blog.
Not that I'm dead or so, just that is that word again- busy.
The busiest man alive is me.

What I have been doing when I'm gone?
Pretty much the same.
Attachment and more work at Baleno.
Did I say My previous plan for Chinese New Year was to spend at Baleno too?

Nah, luckily that wasn't how it goes...
I'm still happy to celebrate Chinese New year with my cousins.
This year everyone look pretty much the same, the same old gambling...
But it's just the people who is always there, and beside the point, the betting rates has changed too.
This year seems pretty silent.
Suddenly miss my grandparents.
The one who always ask me to eat...
The one who always give my brother and I fatter red packet...
The one who cares...
Why must people only repent after someone you dear left you.
That how the philosophy come about isn't it?
You only learn the lesson through the hard way//
I MISS YOU PEOPLE WHO LEFT ME IN THIS WORLD!

As I was saying about the betting rates, I still remember the previous year I was still betting 50cents or 1 dollar. But this year I'm or I should say we all are betting 2 dollars and above...
HAHA. It's that a sign of aging or maturity?

Where's Enru??
It's been a real long time I have seen my cousin.
Last time was every week but now not even once in a half a year.
But still I enjoy every second when I spend with them.
MORE outing please....

But this year seems to be much more hectic than 2008.
Now to think of it, can you believe that Chinese New Year is long gone?
And I guess I have spent all my red packets money.
WOOT?!?!

How's my attachment?
Fun! Fun with people who're fun!
Pictures say it all:

HAHA! THE mug shot I made.

But last but not least, I miss my buds!
Long time never see them. :C

HAHA. Tomorrow I'm seeing them. :D
I"m tired. BYE.

How's your day?

2009-01-15T19:52:00.002+08:00

Hey people, how's your day?
Just started school or having attachment like myself?
I bet my friends are pretty much the same.
Attachment.

I really fell in love with all my patients there.
They're so cute like small little babies that you want to take care of them, albeit they can be grouchy too. Nevertheless they just make me feel fatherly. Haha.
I mean some of the patients there really need extra extra attention, but some of them, you can really let them be themselves, as long as they don't harm themselves or the surroundings. They're too interesting, they just fill my day with mainly laughter.
Most of the time, when I was in the ward, I kept laughing with big exclamation mark on my head, thinking they are actually being so special.
People, listen! Just don't judge a book by it's cover.
Some of them still behave normally under the control of the drugs.
Some of the incident happened today:
I saw this patient looking at the magazine, I was wondering is he looking or really reading.
So I went forward and asked him. He said he was reading. So I decided to test whether he was lying to me or not, I said why not you read this particular article for me. To my surprise, his recognise most of the Chinese character, and is better than me. Then I gave him a pen and he wrote down his blessing for everyone and hope everyone have a Happy New Year. Woot! Bravo!

I tell you I never talk so much in my life, I think.
The patient has made me talk so much until my jaw muscle cramped.
They're just so friendly, and cute.

And you know what?
I met up with my Secondary school friend again in the bus, during the journey back home.
We chatted from the start of the journey till the end.
Now my jaw is already loosen, and numbed. HAHA.
But I enjoyed. We talked so much about what happen during those years, who had changed... whatever, whatever...
And you know what?
My year batch has develop 8 nurses including myself.
That super lot okay.
We rules, Canberra Secondary!
But heard that it turned into a gangster school.

I'm lack of O2. I need sleep.
Good night.

I love you MI and ML!

2009-01-12T21:30:00.005+08:00

How can i stop my bitchy-ness?
I just feel that there is a bitch living in me, and people tend to hate me because of that.
And I hate myself too!
Tell me a solution to my problem.
Maybe too much of gossip girls, I totally thinks that bitch has been awaken by that show.
whatever, bitch you!
Here is season one, episode one: ilot
http://www.gossipgirlepisodes.org/episode/1

First day of attachment at IMH was fun.
People there are real interesting.
They say stuff that really sound real but it ain't.
How many times can a perfect normal human come in a contact with MI patient?
And how many MI patient can a perfect normal human who is not a nurse come in contact with such a big group of MI patient?
I just think I'm lucky enough to have the chance.

I'm so tired now.
Good night people.

Occupied with exam.

2009-01-08T01:02:00.003+08:00

Who would be a kind soul to upload the movie 4 romance(Fan Waan Aai Joop) online?!
Have to waiting a searching for the movie since last Christmas...

The film puts together 4 love stories delivered by 4 leading filmmakers. Each story offers unique angles of love from different perspective and storytelling style. 4 Romance contains 4 genres: comedy, drama, action, and musical. Discover the answer and the meaning of love in 4 Romance.
And you know what it's going to be something like 4bia...
After 4bia, now you have 4 romance... HAHA.

Who is going to bloody upload la!

Anyway I'm a happy person today! I finally pass my BCLS and CLINICAL skills.
Woot, cool! Finally all the stress can be thrown into the big blue sea.
This week is filled with test, Monday BCLS, Tuesday BCLS retest, Wednesday Clinical skills retest, Thursday Clinical theory retest, and Friday Elective ICA.
CRAP! No time to even enjoy my life!
THIS YEAR I SHALL REALLY ENJOY MY LIFE AND NO ONE IS GOING TO STOP ME!
that's what I believe in...

Light up

2009-01-06T01:05:00.002+08:00

Light up, Light up,
as if you have a choice...

I love Leona Lewis new singles: RUN.
Here's the MTV of the song but embedding has been disabled... but you still can click and watch here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pcpWQC9prm0
Watch it in high quality.
It's gonna be another hottest hit song. :D

Life is still the same.
2009, 2008 I can't different shade.
I still continue being the busiest man I can ever be.
No time to even update my blog. :C
But still wish you all you late Merry Christmas and Happy New year..
Sadly, I didn't spend my new year well.
This year was the first year countdown wish baby.
But haven got the chance to do so, cause who the bloody hell will get super sick on that day.
The whole of 2008 I didn't get such a bad flu but on the last day of it, I got the flu that everyone is getting...
:C I spend my last day and the first day of 2008 and 2009 in my sleep.
Well done.

But still nevertheless I still feel loved from baby. :D
i'll be right beside you dear...
light up, light up...

Love of Siam

2008-12-13T04:00:00.005+08:00

HAHA!
My first Thailand movie: Love of Siam.
I love the emotions created in the movie.
:D
But I feel so weird for the ending part...
Maybe your shall watch it, to judge for yourself.
Overall I feel that it's a good movie...

(Watch it, don't worry it's with English Subtitle.)

Part 1:

Part 2:

Part 3:

Part 4:

Part 5:

Part 6:

Part 7:

Part 8:

Part 9:

Part 10:

Part 11:

Part 12:

Part 13:

Part 14:

Part 15:

Part 16:

Tong: I can't be with you as your boyfriend, but that doesn't mean I don't love you.

......

The owl is late again...

2008-12-12T23:03:00.004+08:00

How? Many mistakes a owl must made to let him know about lateness is a serious problem.
The owl wants to correct his behaviour, seriously.

Today he made the most serious mistake in life, that he nearly cause his group to fail.
He was late for his ICA presentation.
Who will ever be late for such a important thing in their life?
I don't know, but he really felt guilty.
What he can say now is he's really thank his subgroup for not reprimanding him on his mistake.
HE LOVE YOU ALL. :D
...And HE really LOVE HIS GROUPMATES too.
They all delay the time for him!!!
Oh my gosh! He's really thankful!
H REALLY LOVE YOU PEOPLE! XOXO!

:XXXXXXXX
He should die.

I have fun today:

2008-12-12T01:24:00.008+08:00

Tell me that I should miss my longer fringe, tell me that I'm "moo-ing" instead of talking during my previous previous post. What a retarded statement to construct: I love both my hairstyle cause it's both myself. MOO~~ That's what I hear now.
I hate my hair, because I don't know how to style it. :C
It so troublesome to handle.
Imagine yourself as a night owl, but still you have to wake up in the morning like all other birds, because they say it's normal for birds to wake up in the morning. What they haven realize is you're a owl not a normal bird. HAHA. What bullshit I'm trying to convey over is IMAGINE YOU'RE A OWL BEING FORCE TO LEAD A NORMAL BIRDY LIFE, and you're always late for the birdy class that you suppose to attend due to your insomnia nights, and now because of your freaking hair that need extra attention and to you want to be presentable for everyone, you have to wake up really early for it.
You all understand?
The pain of this owl.
How it really want to sleep and rest?
I bet you'll understand.
Now let's have a second of silent for this owl; to feel his pain, and to understanding his feeling.
HAHA.
The end of my moo-ing.
Conclusion of this crap will be I hate my hair, and I need professional hairstylist help.
Now may I get all the professional hairstylist attention, may you kindly help this poor owl. :D:D:D:D:D

Back to reality...
Today I had fun in school.
Sometimes it's good to be mad with your friends.
REALLY!!
Don't bother about how people will think and look, just do what you feel like.
That is always the theory behind the way I perform, it's the only way you'll enjoy.
(^^)Don't you think so?
Mar my always group member, haha, remember her?
She was once my group member too.
Today after meeting, we started having Rabies and started biting people.
Nah, I'm joking. We started to be mad, and tickled each other and stool each other things.
End up we ran around the school like some chicken, but it was totally fun!

Speaking about Rabies, remember I once mention that I watched Rec and Quarantine?
Actually it do happen on human, HUMAN DO GET AFFECTED BY RABIES, which I thought it only affect on animals, which I'm wrong.
Here is a poor Filipino child who suffer from rabies:

Poor Filipino Child With Rabies -
Kind of scary isn't it? It some what exactly like the movie I watched.
Just that he's being tied up, and didn't go again biting people.
:CCCCC After watching the video, we shouldn't make fun of people having rabies or other disease, pardon if I did or do. I bet the parent of the child must have feel very hurtful when the child suffers.

Okay back to reality...
Today went out with baby again. :D:D:D:D
I had fun too, and we bought a lot of cheapo stuff.
Can you believe it? I bought my aviator for two dollars only?
Yes I couldn't believe too.
And guess what, she is going to buy this for me?
HAHA? I'm a pervertic fisherman, be careful!

We always take a million of photos, but I'm too lazy to do a good posting.
Most probably the next time. :D
Haha. Here's a sneak preview:

BYEEE!

my brother

2008-12-10T00:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes how I wish I could be like my brother, having so little stress about anything.
That's my perception, true.

Haven been talking to him since don't know when.
He doesn't bother to talk to me at all.
Mainly I'm doing the most of the conversation.
NOPE, we don't converse.
I question and he answer that's all. :C:C:C:C
I'm trying my best, but I don't see him trying at all.
What I wish was to have a normal family, and mummy doesn't have to worry about our relationship. But from what I see and sense, he don't care.
I don't know about him.
He is strange to me, but I hope to know more...
:C sigh, everytime I talk about my brother, I'll frown.
I really don't know anything about him.

Okay put that aside.
I wish my holiday can come so quickly.
My precious two weeks break.
And I shall really be a normal teenager.
I shall party and slack at home everyday.
That's how I'm going to spend my holiday.
BOOK me quick! I'm almost fully book. WAHAHA!!

Change:

2008-12-09T00:13:00.007+08:00

Last Thursday I got my hair-cut with my baby.
This is the out come, haha, and ironically, I got different comments from different people.
Some say they prefer the previous hairstyle, which is...
THIS:

whereas some say they like this haircut:

Anyway, I like both my hairstyle, because I'm still me.
HAHA.

I really love the season of love, Christmas.
I feel love too. :D

Being too attach I wonder is a good thing or not, cause I miss her every moment I leave her.
:C:C:C:C:C
:):):):):)

Today we bought the same hat from Bugis street.
It's super nice, and it ostonly twelve bucks, can you believe it?
HAHA. I totally love it.

And we catch BOLT the cartoon, you know I have this thing about cartoon.
I think they're lame and immature, but Bolt is different.
HAHA, it's funny. I kept laughing throughout the movie.
It's also a "must catch" cartoon.
:D

Okay.
Back to my love, BYE people.

For some reason

2008-12-02T01:33:00.004+08:00

Lyrics:Joanna Wang/Bing Wang
Music:Joanna Wang/Bing Wang

put on your shoes
people used to tell me
now they think it's like a style
of some kind or something

how do I explain that
I just don't believe in
all this purposely for
the world's perception of me

this is only rubbish put eloquently
like all the gothic poetry
kids are writing
from the high school scene

Hey let's start running
for no reason
let's start laughing
without any jokes
when did we need excuses to do what we do I won't explain myself
would't you agree that sounds nice

that's right
we can go out
watch a movie
climb out my window
in the middle of the night
and when the world's asleep we shall dance like mad amusement all only
would't you agree that sounds nice

so you mean you just
don't like wearing shoes
I've got sweety feet
I think I've made my point

if you truly like it then
it won't mean a thing
if it's a trend or if it's banned
by the fashion police

all the things I do I don't do them for you
I'm not down to earth not
planning to be
it's all hypocrisy

What have I been listening?
Yes, it's this song: For some reason.
Pretty soothing jazz song.
Love it totally.
Just wanna share the lyrics with your, so I put the whole chunk of words there.
so Read it.

For some reason, there is so much to think about.
And for some reason, I shouldn't think so much.
Sigh, what's life getting?
Out of hand? Probably.
I have this old man feeling that my body is not as young and fit as before.
My heart beats faster; my nervous tension is out of control; and when I'm tense, I tend to have this freaking bad "headache" or I should call it "pressure" that it excreting on the sides of my head.
BAD NEWS.
Blah, big talk.

SPOILER:
BUT MUST WATCH!!

Watch Rec with Fam, Fam's bf, Maine, Maine's Bf, Yingying, Blythe, Joey.
Totally love the horror of the movie.
Totally scare me out, now 4bia is rated second on my most horrifying movie I ever watch.
Probably is also due to your accompany that you go with.
Most of the parts I was scared by the scream and grab of the girl beside me: BLYTHE.
And guess what? I screamed along. It's so embarrassing.

A trailer of Quarantine:

And I watch Quarantine with my baby yesterday.
It's just the English version of Rec but was having lesser effect of Rec's horrifying moments.
I just find Rec nicer, but still I got shock by many parts.
I mean who will not be frighten if someone suddenly fall from the stairs and right in front of you.
HAHA. I can so totally replay the scene over and over again in my head.

To end off, I hope your have a nightmare.
HAHA, joking.
Sweet dreams to you all.

Warning: I'm a bad bad person!

2008-12-01T09:36:00.003+08:00

Being a nursing student is not easy.
You must have to be good moral value, your behaviour must be right and your language must be prefect; not vulgarity. At least not being caught when you misbehaviour.
So what are we, we're saint.
And among all reasons, I met the dupty of nursing for the most retarded reason I can ever think of, using vulgarity. She's a fine person, and she is really nice to me, but I don't see a point to see her for such reason. Who could I blame? Perhaps I really need some concealing from her, I really do have problem at home- my mother use vulgarity on me every single day. Ya, I'm speaking the truth. BLAH!
She say if I never repeat my actions until I complete the course, the case will be close. Of course after I graduated, my actions will be discipline by others.

Vulgarity = bad bad person!
no-vuglarity = saint!

Yeah, I'm a saint in this post!
P.S I'm not to making fun of any religon.

No return.

2008-11-25T03:02:00.001+08:00

Want to hear my rants?
This is what i suppose to pose on last Thursday.
Bad news for me.
I failed my practical.
Yup, not once, but twice.
Yup the retake too.
CRAP. Look what I just did to my life.

Treat my rants as nuisance:
20'nov
"Starting from today I'll have a strong reason to quit Nursing, and thanks to you MDM.F!

I'm super duper disappointed in you. When you said that no one could hears you, and I'm that IDIOT to walk forward to you! And how you treat me? Where on earth you got those crazy ideas to penalise a student. The starting on the examination, you said that my tray is wet and am I going to start with it? I mean which other lecturer would say that, and my tray was barely wet! I have been always hearing- lecturers are there to help and not fail a student. From this incident, I really can see how lectuers are helping us, really.

I know it has been my fault to not realise HUMLIN (R) was Atrapid but by doing the first check I would have check with an staff nurse! AND COULDN'T you be MORE LIEN!(whatever it spells). The problem is when I was preparing, there was only 3 drugs there and how clever I thought I'm. Two of the drugs I know what they're therefore I took the last one which is the wrong one too! I don't know how much kindness you have, you claim that I'm a danger to the patients in the hospital and wonder why have I choosen Nursing. I'm telling you, I don't feel like being in the same career as you hypocite!

I was damn fustrated, and I kept using vugarities. A lectuer heard what I said and goes "Young man how could you use such an crude word" and I goes "Okay what the hell!", I almost caught a disapproval shake of his head, when he goes"take pride in yourself" I'm feeling damn lousy and there he goes lecturing me?!"

What had been done was done.
No return.
Not to blame my relationship,
but perhaps too much of it recently?
It's too addictive, I just can't quit.

BIG DAY

2008-11-20T00:00:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is my big day again.
Not that I'm getting married again, it's my Nursing laboratory exam again.
Sigh. Heard from some of my friends that they failed the test.
They're those who always pass the test and this time round, they couldn't make it.
And me... Sigh. Always have to end up retaking testes.
DAMN.
And now, here I'm using the computer and blogging.

BYE.

I'm in love.

2008-11-19T00:32:00.003+08:00

Actually I wish to do some proper post, but I haven have the spare time to do so.
As you can see from the previous posts, which I just posted up, actually they were drafts, but I was lazy to continue...
Let me get this post started..
Time passes real quickly before I realized that I'm older.
Being 18 or not 18 by a day or two was a weird feeling.
Just like when you're days to 18 you're not allow to be in clubs or bars, but when you're 18 you're allow to be inside. Super retarded.
I have my best 18 birthday celebrations with my classmates, besties, and my baby.
My 'pre' and birthday parties was filled with surprises.
I love my friends and my love.
I love them organizing for me, I love them sacrificing for me, and I just love them.
My biggest birthday wish is to be filled with love everyday.

So far my wish have been coming true.
I'm LOVE, and hope to be love more.
My birthday party is over, maybe I'll tell your in details the next time.
:D sweet dreams people.

OOMM

2008-11-10T23:42:00.003+08:00

Ya, I know. I haven been blogging too oftenly.
It's almost been a month since the last post.
It's not like I have nothing to post, but I'm lazy like always.
Soon I'll be 18, and you know what?
What you're going 18, you just simply say stuff like 'So what if I'm 18?'
You gonna murder someone? Cause you can be jailed now instead of being in the Boy's home?!
Life is just making me sad each day.
I don't feel a point or place the really need my presence.
So what's the big deal about being 18 or 28?
I believe it's not a big deal.
If REALLY I need to celebrate my birthday, I really wish to be simple.
I know you all will be like who is going to make it BIG, FANCY or LOUD for your birthday.
I know I know, just a tiny cute little reminder for MR JS.
I really don't wish to be remind that I'm still surviving in the cruel whole for almost 18 years.
MAD!
I'm being OOMM right now so don't bother.
(OOMM - Out Of My Mind) [Just wanna act big shot]

Jay Chou

2008-10-23T01:10:00.001+08:00

I love Jay Chou new album.

Technology sucks.

2008-10-15T23:59:00.004+08:00

Crap.
Now I'm going post like the world is ending so bear with me for a little.
Everything I said is being exaggerated.
You know what the "worst piece" of shit that i have downloaded.
Mozilla Firefox kept giving me problem, it's either my computer is retarded or the software it's is.
I'm unable to watch Youtube videos in Firefox, and you know what I'm the biggest fan of Youtube. If I'm online, I want to watch Youtube videos, and now I force to use IE because Firefox forbits me to do so. FREAK.
Technology sucks.

You know about my mp4?
About two months ago I stopped using my mp4.
Out of sudden, the display went total blank and is unable to be switch on again.
And when I charged it with the computer(as in the "USB way"), it kept blinking without the normal battery sign; total blank.
It must have went MAD under my "proper" usage.
Without surprise, I knew I spoiled it.
I stop touching it and using it for over two months.
And today, out of the blue moon I thought of my MP4.
I googled Creative; Vision; M, Keeps; Blinking.
And one of the website states : My Vision: M wont turn on, just a blinking blue light
It's exactly my problem. I clicked into it, and read through some of the messages left and I came to this one that caught my attention.

"Banham: Your battery appears to be drained. The computer will not
recognize your player if it cannot power up, which it can't with the battery
drained. Plug it in and allow it to charge for several hours. At some point of
time, the battery will charge enough to turn on, display charging status, and
allow the computer to recognize the player, thus speeding up the
charge."

I was like OMG! ARE YOU SERIOUS!
Obviously there is no reply, mad if there is.
And I happily went to find my AC charger (whatever you call that), and I plug in...
WOW! MIRICAL has happened, the sky dropped.
Nah~ I mean the the battery sign appeared.
YEAH! MY MP4 IS WORKING!
Like I told you technology sucks.
HAHA! I know it's my retardedness.
Nevermind, take it easy. I'm exaggerating.
__________________
Okay, exaggeration ends here.

Today I went out with bestie, and boyfriend.
R-tard! Not my boyfriend but my bestie's boyfriend.
It's always fun to hang out with them.
We talked, we joked, we gossiped, we shared, we sang, we crap-ed, we listened, aiya, whatever human does, we did them all.
Party world voucher bluffed us again.
It's states like 4hours free room, but not inclusive of all the compulsory items(tibits, towels... and r-tarded stuff.) that is needed and end up we have to pay for 20 dollar plus for that "free" room. Anyway we sang too but we got the student package which is much cheaper but the usage of the room is one hour lesser than then "free" room. Still, we got the student package, but we were too high to leave the room and we added an hour and the charge is almost like the "free" room charges. R-tard! haha.
But it's fun, we sang, we dance, it's just like we having our own mini concert. HAHA! BUT I did not sing the 911's songs. HAHA.
Nevermind.
I enjoy my day that good enough.

Share with your a little secret.
The boyfriend is going to treat us drinks on his birthday.
EXCITED! WAHAHAHA!

Off to study, bye!

BACK FOR MORE UPDATES!
After watching the boring CMS video.
I got super bored and roam around websites.
ZIPIA is having 25%off the conversion price.
I don't exactly know what they meant, but hope if there is spree I will be entitled to the discount they meant. WAHAHA!
Anyway, I happened to tag a stranger's blog, and I said something like time to change blogskin.
And that person actually reply, and said something like I want to change but I don't have time to find. If you're free then help me find one. Then I was like okay.. now I'm freee~ and I can help youuu~ And I flooded his tag with lots and lots of blogskins saying that "I like this one, this is good, maybe animation is creative for blogskin... blahblahblah". I think when stranger sees the tagboard stranger will faint. WAHAHA!
WHO CARES, now I'm going to hunt for new blog for my interesting tag. :D

Have to turn in.
Tomorrow have to wake up early.
GOOD NIGHT!

Yahoo

2008-10-13T02:13:00.003+08:00

Yahoo people.
The blog has been in a long term beak uh?
Get bored of reading the same post and hearing the same music?
HAHA.

Tomorrow is a new start of a new semester in school.
Yeah! I miss hanging out with Fam and Maine.
Boo! Have got to study harder this semester.
I so don't wish to repeat what I have done the last semester.
It's so crappy, all the worries and shits.
It's okay, that's over and will not be back.
:D Haven I share the good news with your, but I think you have guess it too, if not I'll have flood the blog with more emotional posts.
YES! I PASS MY RETEST!
No, I'll not repeat my semester!
But have heard the this semester will be short.
:C

Anyway have your heard of the boy band 911?
They sing sweet love songs like how backstreet boys and blue have.
I miss all the pop songs.

911 - The Day We Find Love

911- How Do You Want Me To Love You

911 - All I Want Is You

911 - Don't Make Me Wait

911 Baby Come Back To Me

HAHA. I'm prepare for my little live concert during my next trip to kbox.
:D
And it's 13'oct! So sensitive to the number 13 this year!
HAHA! Because soon I'll be legal like you and me. yeah!
Bye, turn in soon.

Just once

2008-10-03T18:30:00.003+08:00

"Just once" singing competition!

Let put our hands together and welcome our first singer, Bi/Rain!

and coming up is the second singer, Se7en!

Last but not the least, the origin singer, James Ingram!

Be the judge and vote for the best singer for the song 'Just once'.

The winner takes it all

2008-09-28T00:54:00.004+08:00

The winner takes it all~
Never I have once know the Meryl Streep can sing so well.
Remember her being Miranda Priestly the fashion queen in The Devil Wears Prada.
She's being so bossy, and annoying. I somehow hate and love her in the movie.
But I never forget her arrogant beautiful look, even when she cry, she's still look so beautiful.
Compare the contrast:
Meryl Streep in The Devil Wears Prada
Source

Meryl Streep in Mama Mia!
Source

In The Devil Wears Prada, she look fierce, strict, arrogant, and unfriendly.
In Mama Mia!, she look sweet, gullible and friendly.
Haha. She no longer the rich woman in my impression.
Most of the times, we don't know the actors and actresses at all.
We just can judge them by the movies they act.
If I ever get a chance to act, I'll make my first impression as the forever good guy. HAHA!
In the Mama Mia! Soundtrack most of the songs was sang by her origin by ABBA.
I LOVE OLDIES!

ABBA - The winner takes it all

I dont wanna talk
About the things weve gone through
Though its hurting me
Now its history
Ive played all my cards
And thats what youve done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
Thats her destiny

I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking Id be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
Its simple and its plain
Why should I complain.

But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you?
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed

The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators of the show
Always staying low
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
A big thing or a small
The winner takes it all

I dont wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
Youve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence
But you see
The winner takes it all
The winner takes it all......

I just love the song.
and did I say I'm getting my first ever Sunday off!
Hurray! I'm so gonna to celebrate!
off to bed!
Good night.

Post exam.

2008-09-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

Hi people.
How was my exam?
GOOD! the opposite.
The SAQ was pretty easy as the topics that was given by Mr Raj was really helpful.
But the MCQ... I suck at it.
I really hope to pass.
Pretty please! Anyway regardless how good we score for the retest we'll still get a passing grade, like D. But I'm satisfied with the D instead of F.

Yeah! I'm happy.
Happy not because I know the result, but at least something is off my mind.
Nothing special today.
Maybe yes? I'm late for work today.
HAHA. Really nothing special.
Okay, rest well people.

Recovery

2008-09-23T14:16:00.003+08:00

I feel like I have just recover from a blackout...
My head is spinning, my body is wearing with extra extra lots of muscle strains.
Stock-take isn't a kidding job.
The calculations had killed most of my brain cells yesterday.
To conclude from what I did yesterday, I can say I don't calculate well.
Yesterday I didn't did much on the lifting of stocks, and I don't know why I felt like I had ran 2.4km.
Perhaps the stress had made me exhausted.

Today and tomorrow will not be easy for me, I have decided to stay focus on my Biology lecture notes.
SO JiaYou for me.
BYE.

Twilight

2008-09-21T01:16:00.006+08:00

Updates:
Two boring working days has passed.
For the two subsequent days I was just preparing for the big day.
The STOCK TAKE day which take place on Monday.
I did endless counting, which I believe my mental calculation would have improved by then.
Sigh.
Wish I could have more money, wish I could have more time.
I wanna go out with my cousins and friends, but I didn't have time.
Ain't that what I always have been complaining about?

Recently what accompanies me was Twilight, the book written by Stephanie Meyer.
The book I said after P.S. I love you.
A much more interesting plot which revolve around fantasy and reality.
The first book Twilight ended at the part where Edward was going to pass the Vampire's venom to turn Bella into Vampire too.
Was he going to do so? I leave the question to yourself and the second book New Moon.
The first attempt fails- Edward mocked Bella that she has actually trusted him to give in so easily to turn her into a monster. But she told him that it was a girl's dream; a dream that to be with him forever...
Erwwwww*13858904, so sweet. Add in some romantic drama to the sentence.
I'm so getting the next book NEW MOON tomorrow.
Haha, I'm happy that I actually choose the right book when I was finding a new mate after P.S. I love you. I cling on this book everytime and almost everywhere I go.
But that time I didn't know that I was a continual story, and I bought the first and third book of her collection, Twilight and Eclipse. Stupid me.

To know how she came up with Twilight and the series.
Read here!
and watch this! where she discusses about her books.

I just love the book!
Get them if you haven get one!

Source: http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/

Bye, off to sleep.

where are you godness of luck?

2008-09-18T19:04:00.005+08:00

Luck still isn't on my side yet.
This morning I was awoken by my handphone's vibration.
By the time I reached it, I saw a missed call and two unread messages.
One of the messages and the missed call was from my in-charge.
The message stated:
Where you place the net card cannot find.
I didn't know what the hell she was talking about, but sounded serious, so I called back.
A female picked up the call, she made a weak noise that I couldn't even catch what she was saying.
It was almost like those ghostly voices in the movies.
I said Lynne please.
She replied, where did you put the Nets card.
I was shocked that it was her. She sounded like she's been losing tons of fluid and will be fainting sooner or later. But that wasn't the point.
I recalled last night while I was closing, I did gestured to place back the supervisor card.
But she said it wasn't in place.
Soon she hanged up with a weak goodbye, cause I guess I wasn't helping much.

That really made my day, YEAH!
Another LUCKY DAY that I should celebrate.
Can you imagine, among so many things I actually lose that card.

That's not the end yet.
I felt really irresponsible so I decided to went back after my Biology remedial.
And like what I have thought, the card dropped into the slight opening of the cashier counter.
Yeah! Wasted my time, good thing is I felt relieved.

About Biology remedial, Mr Raj gave us topics that may come out in the retest.
Useful tips, hope it really works.
I felt lucky as I sat in the room with the other students.
As they were chatting, I was eavesdropping most of their conversions.
Many said that they not only fail one subject but more.
With the thought that I only fail a subject, I felt lucky.
That doesn't means I'll be complacent, that means work harder.

After Mr Raj had said what he wanted to say, he come forward, beside me, and questioned:
Why did you fail?
(I was stunned by his approach and words thus I didn't make a respond.)
Many of your friends scored well.
(I mumbled I know, and quickly left the room.)
I felt guilty that didn't know how to face him.
Isn't it sad, your lecturer noticed you among the students.
It just seems like you shouldn't be in the room but you are.

Anyway after P.S I love you, I was reading Twilight.
Wow, another romance I like.
HAHA. The movie is coming... I don't know when but I'm excited.
Gonna make a hit like Harry Potter.
Here's a preview:

You know what while I was searching for the trailer, I found the one that the fan made.
I thought it was good too, I almost fall for it.
Here it is:

Okay, Time to be back to life.

I'm standing up.

2008-09-18T00:09:00.010+08:00

I'm injured.
I felt stupid.
it's never like this.
I have been too complacent.
I thought my luck is always taking care of me, angel is always by my side,
and yesterday and today proved me wrong.
Or should I say I'm always wrong.
Yesterday the news of my failure really really hit me.
I can't concentrate since then...
I tried to pull myself back to reality and tell myself that I really really can make it for the retest.
But I'm scared of the consequences of failing again.

Haven tell you why am I injured.
I fell while walking.
It's not a major injury, just a few slight abrasions.
The impact of the biology really makes me out of place, I wasn't thinking or looking when I walk, I felt so empty.

OKAY, I shall PULL MYSELF UP.
STOP all the empties after this entry.
I have my darling and friends support!
Thanks to those who had texted me. XO to your!
Darling, Besties, and friends' love stay me strong.
I'll not let you and myself down!

Yesterday was FUN.
Gave bestie a suprise in the airport.
She teared upon seeing us.
That moment was great.
You know, it just mean a lot to them and myself.
We ate sushi tei together, spend sometime watching the world go by, and catch the movie I always wanted to watch 4bia.

Source: Wikipedia
I rate 4bia as my most scariest movie among the those movies I watched.
I think mostly it's disturbance, as in, suddenly a the image of someone will appear with a loud scary sound.
The disturbance is something like Rihana music video, Disturbia.
I think she acted well in the music video, I love it.
Perhaps there is alternative in her career line.

As for 4bia,I got freaked out a few times while watching it.
TOO MUCH DISTURBANCE of it, blame it.
The movie tells about four different stories, and while it was showing the ending of third story I felt relieved, as I thought the movie has ended but it didn't. Remember it's 4bia, 4-bia. So it's obvious from the tittle that it's telling four stories. The first one was scary as I haven got myself prepared, the second and third one was lame, and the fourth one was scary too. Too much disturbance.

If you haven scare yourself out by watching the movie, what're you waiting for?
PAY for it! I think it worth the money.
It really should be rated NC-16.
Speaking of NC16, our IC was checked twice.
They said they're going according to the rules, but I think it's because of my besties' looks. When we had show them the tickets, they requested for our IC again. Fam showed her's, and he said that she was below 16.
Then she said something like hallo, I'm 18.
HAHA, he got was surpised and look again at the IC and back to the counter when I think there is a chart stating all the years that is above 16.
It's kind of retared, after showing them the IC he still thinks that she is below 16.
What is the whole going into.. It's either he fail his calculation, or I'll say Fam really look young.
Next time don't be surpise if you hear this:
Sorry miss/sir, you look too young for the movie. I'm afraid that I'm unable to permit your entry.

Source: Wikipedia
Yesterday I watch the other movie Keith online,
Another touching movie must watch, something like A walk to remember.
I remember there is one sene when Natalie was happy that she and Keith can finally to be together, and was talking to him happily in the car (after they make-out) (about why she was happy, I shall not explain, watch it yourself). Keith didn't think their relationship will last due to some underlying problem, and decided to pissed her off by provoking her.
In the end Natalie was infuriated by Keith and swored at him.
Natalie: FUCK YOU!
Keith: You just did.
Natalie was stunned by his word, and slammed the car door after she got off.
HAHA. Jesse McCarney acted well in the movie, he behaved totally like a weirdo and his line are funny; Keith is Funny.
Sweet classic line from A walk to remember:
Daniel: Our love is like the wind, I can't see it, but I can feel it.
There is a lot of music video made by the "fan" of A walk to remember hiding in Youtube.
Search for A walk to remember in Youtube, and you'll be able to see all of them. :D
Sweet~!

OKAY.
Shall end here.
Good night.

:C

2008-09-16T22:36:00.003+08:00

I had my lowest GPA!
I scored so badly this semester that I even have to retake my Biology.
Biology fail means have to repeat 6months. :C
ARGH!
HAVE TO WORK HARD FOR THE RETEST!

my god, wish me luck.
Tell you tomorrow about today.
Don't feel like blogging now.

Good MORNING.

2008-09-16T05:18:00.004+08:00

Good morning, SINGAPORE!
It's 5.18am, and I haven sleep.
The way I live my life is just ill-treating my body.
Have to apologise to it.
Each late night I spent with the computer was the cause of my aging look.
Remember during attachment I questioned any "potential-friend-strangers" how old does my face looks. It kind of depressing when you hear that you're actually look;twenties, when you haven even reach your legal age.
Nevermind.
IF I look that mature, I shall club starting from tomorrow.
I'll club every night till I look 50s.
HAHA.
Late night is bad, moreover radiations from the computer is even worst.
So sleep early!

Recently have been repeatedly listening to this song.

何維健 Derrick Hoh - 你走天橋我走地下道

Click to enjoy:

Yeah, 要一起到老...
一起到老.
will 一起到老?
will.
Today my mother pop the question that most mothers will ask.
Do you have a girlfriend?
I have been waiting for this chance since a long time ago.
I was wondering should I or should I not tell her the truth.
I wondered and stoned for a second as I looked away.
She pressed on, so do you or do you not have a girlfriend?
As my normal routine answer/question.
I'll ask to person to guess my answer.
She said yes.
You know the feeling was: Crap! she's right! so how should I react?
Reaction 1:
Oh yeah! You're right! YEAH BABY! (pretend to sound exciting)
Reaction 2:
Erm.. yeah. BUT you know, the relationship just blossom, update you again. (Admit but put a full-stop to the conversion before she questions more.)
But I did neither of the reactions above.
I admit admit and didn't put a full-stop to it, and I regretted it.
She questioned further.
But overall she's still okay, she is just typical.
NOT to have premarital sex.
How about kissing?
What stage are your on?
Luckily she haven she didn't have that drama-mama ANTI RELATIONSHIP IN YOUNG AGE.
She wasn't like that kind of mother that you shouldn't get onto a relationship while you're still schooling.
HAHA.

OHOHOH!
speaking of school, sudden recall.
MY result is out today if I'm not wrong.
Hopefully it's not devil-ly.
What I hope for is an PASSING GRADE.

HEE, there I go again...
BYE.

HOLA HOLIS!

2008-09-15T00:42:00.002+08:00

CRAP! CRAP! CRAP!
I actually locked my handphone.
It's a long story...
You know when I switch-on my handphone, I have to enter two codes.
One Pin code, the other is Lock code.
That's another long story.
I set the Pin code as I thought if I happen to lose my handphone again(crossfinger), I shall not let the bloody person get the advantage. So I set the code as when you restart the handphone, you will require the pin code.
As for the lock code, it's a code that you need when you left your own untouch for a minute or more. You know my in-charge right?
She was the one who made me set the code.
She invaded my privatcy by going through my messages... HAHA.
SO. That's the point, you know.

And just now, my handphone is giving me tons of troubles, and I kept restarting my handphone. And I repress the codes for so many times, until I press wrongly for contiuous three times. SO three comes the PUK code.
RETARED.
Have to call the Singtel hotline to get it settled.
Waste 10 minutes of my life pressing the countless numbers...

LET the unluckiness to the dump...
AND bring me luck for my holidays...
YEAH! HOLIDAY!
HOLA HOLIS!

Korean songs

2008-09-03T01:04:00.003+08:00

Korean songs are beautiful.
I love Korean songs.
Although I don't understand, I can feel.
The song is just like it's been filled with overwhelming emotions.
HAHA.
It seems like it's mend for my type of people; those who always fall into emotion traps.
Yesterday I watch Music Bank at KBS world, and I saw this..

This song is so nice.
It's by V.O.S, Voice of Soul.
It's really voice of the inner soul.
HAHA.
Love R&B songs. :D

I can't stop watching concerts. I feel like going concert again.
I'm so addicted to the atmosphere, the super high atmosphere.
When everyone become one and sings together.
Wow, so cool.

Another Korean group SG wannabe and V.O.S sing Lalala and Beautiful life.

So nice.
Shall entertain myself, if you don't like them..

That's all for today.

2008-08-31T00:31:00.006+08:00

Hey hey, people.
My mood is down again.
As you can see from the picture, I can't even smile properly. (That's a joke)
Really have tried very hard to let bygones be bygones.
Even though I have bad memory, but what have engraved into me, for sure I'll remember.
Now I'm full of untold scars and the scars to be untold.
Too much bad memories to even know where to start from.
Sometimes how I wish I could have a normal life, that wouldn't have so much of the peak.
For now I'll put them into my subconscious mind. That's the most I could do... at least, I'll pretend to be happy all the time.

The day before yesterday, Thrusday, after attachment I went to have my hair cut.
Spent S$117, quite a sum of money.
Quite happy with the outcome, but guess was my hair isn't that type of hair that can receive any dye, so even though I changed my hair colour, it doesn't seems like it was changed.
After which, I went out with my colleagues to bowl at Marina Square.
Bowling isn't my type of game, so I think it's alright for me to pay to "clear their drains".
Didn't expect much form it too. Anyway that night expenses was mainly paid by my in-charge.
She is nice, but her temper is like shit when you work with her.

YUP! That's here.
Today still got a free ride home with her.
And have learn something about cars..
Today will be the day to introduce my colleagues to your.
On the left is my In-charge, Lynne,
and on the right is my ex-colleague, Jie Ping.

Emily didn't go that day, so sad. :C
And that's the rest of our Belano staff.
From the top left, Shirley, to the right, Jia Yan.
And on the bottom, second-in-charge, Sally, and beside, ME!

And random snapshots:

After the bowling, we went to the 'grab-toy-machine'
This is what we gotten.
The two brown toys was free.
It was grabbed by Jie Ping.
He is a "Pro" in grabbing the toys.
He uses a $1 to grab two toys.
HAHA, but sometimes you know you need luck to play this.

On Friday, went to sent this boy off the departure hall.
His going to bangkok for some prayer stuff.
Look what this gay boy did to his bag.
He tied a RED ribbon on his bag.
According to him, it's for better reorganization during collection of his bag.

Erm, it's not nice enough, should tie this again.

Yeah, nice bow ribbon. GAY SMILE(GRIN) :D

HAHA. Okay, I'll STOP TEASING HIM!
HAVE A SAFE JORUNEY!

Today my bestie will be off to Cambodile. for some volunteery work.
It's not easy to be in the team okay, you have to go through interviews.
And she got in!
Whatever it's, ALL THE BEST BESTIE.
HAVE A SAFE TRIP, MOST IMPORTANTLY TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.
XOXO!
Unable to send her off cause her airplane goes off at 6am and she has to be there by 4am.
Thus, sigh sigh.

That's all for today.

China joke of the day.

2008-08-25T00:38:00.002+08:00

It's just another day of work.
Working on Sundays is the worst of the worst of a work day.
As people has know Lucky Plaza is the district place for Philippinos and Bangalas, or I call them Maids and the their boyfriends.
And by serving them is the most difficult of all, they'll just 'dig' your clothes.
Make them as messy as they would.
A non-dumb like a dumb.
But best of all, most of the Sundays I can claim taxi fares. :D
Woot!
and... Today the taxi-driver is very friendly and funny.
He talk about an incident when a China lady flagged his cab.
Before she went in the taxi, she started questioning...
China Lady(CL): Do you go bed ok?
Taxi-driver: BED OK?!(exclaimed)
Taxi-driver: NO! No bed ok!
CL: I wait for so long and you say no?
Taxi-driver: What bed ok? (Doubting her pronunciation): you write for me where you want to go.
CL: BEDOK
Taxi driver: WA LAO! That BE-DOK! NOT BED OK!
(People mistaken that the CL wanted to 'go to bed' with them)

HAHA! WILD LAUGH at the taxi.
:D

It's quite enjoying have a taxi-driver to entertain you after work.
It's the joke of the day.

Today or I should say yesterday as the time now is 12-plus-am, is the closing of the Olympic.
:C Didn't have a chance to catch the closing gala. It's exciting to watch the athletic to work for their medals. When they win, you would cheer for them. When they lose, you will sigh for them, and wish to comfort them. I remember that time when I was in the canteen with Maine and Fam, we watched Olympic games; relating to gymnastic together. And that time there was a Korean(if I didn't remember wrongly) gymnastian who is doing the "hand-twisting -game"(don
't know what that) and he slip and fall for a few times. And you could he the from his expresstion that he is disappointed with what he had done. And at that moment you really wish to say "Hey friend, you had done a good job! At least you completed the game!'
Sigh, it's another four years of wait for this kind of experience.

Tomorrow still had to go for attachment again.
Turning in.
Have a good night earthlings.

Updates:

2008-08-23T00:07:00.009+08:00

Hi people.
I know I have been lacking of updates, but I know, the frequency of 'lack of update' is so much higher than the update itself. Nevertheless, this blog still exist and is alive. Maybe if you're lucky or so, you will have a chance to read my posts. May god bless you for so. Erm, I learn from ML that we shouldn't use the word 'G-O-D' unnecessary. So I shall imitate my Pharmocology lecturer, instead of saying GOD, I shall spell in out.
Let's join the spelling bee contest! Horray!
HAHA!
With my ability, I'll definitely be the 1st runner-up of the last position.
If there is such a space.

ANYWAY ANYWAY.
From the time I have MIA in this blog, you have miss so much happenings of my life.
I have attended F.I.R concert, which is a very splendid experience.
My first time attending a concert.
You know that feeling? The very typical first-time feeling.
Very much of the excitements.
Suddenly my computers is bombard with pictures... because there is really a lot of them.
When I say them is really only the pictures i took at the F.I.R concert.
And guess the total.
100? No, higher..
250? No, much higher..
329? No! SO SO SO MUCH HIGHER!
541? EXACTLY. YES. It's madness, I know.

and I'll show you some of the 542 pictures:

Love; 我们的爱

We will, we will, ROCK YOU!

BYE~~

ENCORE~!

THE END

I tell you by the time I finish uploading the pictures, it's already 2++am.
Crap! And I'm damn tired right now.
My favourite part of the whole concert was when they started singing We'll rock you. When they sang the song, the people HIGH to the max. Everyone sang, and roar with them. I like the part when Jam Xiao came as an guest of honour, his song're nice too; super chinese rock.

Today went out with ML and old friend DERRICK! who haven been meeting him for... 10years? nah, just kidding. But for a very long time. Anyway is nice to make jokes out of him, he is just too friendly for the badies like us. HAHA.
Catch 12 lotus together, a very emotional local movie.
I think it's much of my cup of tea, so I consider it NICE.
Catch it if you want to, it's kind of different from Jack Neo's movie.
Just wonder why people kept comparing their movies together.
It's because of the song?
Anyway, I hate the ending.
Kind of sudden, as I really wish to know more...
I have so many doubts.

OKAY, I shall turn-in soon.
Gotta work in the morning.
See you soon.

KEY lost.

2008-08-05T02:13:00.002+08:00

Tell you a crazy secret.
I lost my keys AGAIN!
It's like TWO KEYS in TWO WEEKS?!!
MADNESS.
After the incident whereby I threw my beloved key into the bin, now all the keys HATE me.
They will eventually go MIA after one or two days.
:S

I need help here!
Teach me how to not lose my key again.

another unproductive day

2008-08-02T02:28:00.007+08:00

HAHA!
Just change my layout into template.
Which means I can change the skin whatever I want again. :D
And guess what the original template from the designer is not like this, is THIS.
I remember my super super ex.template I once used Youtube, now I'm using it again.

Oh well, hope some advertiser will put advertisement on the top. :D
It'll make it look better
Today is good.
I love to be unproductive, and not using my brain.
One day, I shall die of laziness;apply only if laziness kill.
Today I wake up at 3pm.
I slept through my morning, and missed my lectures.
Reason for which: Fridays meant to be lazy.
Reason for waking up: fear of being late for work, and the smell of stewed pork.
*maybe Malay who are reading this, are having the urge to vomit too.
I love my mother's food, I mean what she cooks; home-cook food. Have too much of outside's MSG, still prefer the forever MSG-free food that she always provides. Still today I took a little longer to chew on the food, and enjoy the taste. So today I'm late for work.
Do you actually know that my mother have been catching ENGLISH movies on hallmark, or course there is Chinese subtitle. Today while I enjoy her cooks', I watch the show with her.
The movie today was 'Holiday in Handcuffs". Before I was the show I told her why you like old movies, and she numbered "that's old movies?" But I goggled "Holiday in Handcuffs" it's in 2007. I thought the movie was produced in 1998 or something. Now I know why I conclude the movie is old, cause Hallmark program's graphic seems pale and old. Most shows showed on Hallmark are like that. Or the problem is with the television we had. Anyway, after paying much attention to that movie, the interest grew stronger. So I somehow got stuck with the show and decide to be late for my work, and my mother pop-ed and said who said that old movie isn't nice? I laughed.

I bet by the time your have finish reading this, you have strained your eyes.
OKAY, I know. I'll do something to it.
Anyway, my statistic blog have been out, I mean it's completed.
So feel free to go and comment on it or what-so-ever.
Here's the link: http://abc-healthsupplements.blogspot.com
HAHA.
RANDOM RANDOM:
EXCITED ABOUT NEXT FRIDAY.
FAM and MAINE- SHHHH~!

Update: Font-size edited.

MAGIC ERASER!

2008-07-31T01:45:00.002+08:00

Actually I don't like being filled with so much negative emotions.
I do want to be HAPPY all the time, but I just can't.
Things do make me sad, and I'm still human, I think I still have to rights to be sad.
I'm just over using my emotion.

I want to enjoy life, but I can't seem to be able to do so.
(On the other side of me was like thinking that I'm just purely lazy to make my life better.)
I just finished blogging on the statistic blog, and just found out the we actually did something wrong. So I guess the blog is unable to be completed by today. Anyway tomorrow there's presentation on Research method, and I'm stress. Stress because I'm not well-prepared. Most of the jobs are not done by me, and I felt bad. So I'm really trying hard to make up to my group mates by doing a good job for the statistic and hope that they can forgive my laziness. I have a badly planned life, and there is so much to be accomplished. That is call social role stress, if I haven't remember wrongly what Trina(sociology lecturer) taught us.

My mother always put this fear on me, telling me that I look older than my brother because I always have late nights. WHATEVER! and by that I mean I know it's the truth. Truth are brutal.
BYE! and I'll continue my late night with my Research Method study.
THIS YEAR I SHALL WISH FOR A MAGIC ERASER TO ERASE MY -VE EMOTION.

Excuse

2008-07-25T11:55:00.002+08:00

Overslept again.
Stupid handphone. I was praising it sometime ago, I think it got arrogant and decided to play an trick on me. Last night I slept early, knowing that I'll be sleeping for more than eight hours, I was happy. BUT today wake up in a shock, blame the nice weather. The weather is so cooling that makes you feel that it isn't the time to get up...

An extra common excuse for not attending lesson.

:D

2008-07-22T03:29:00.003+08:00

feeling damn uncomfortable today/
Having a bad flu.
Super hyperactive running nose.
Nope, a it's speeding marathon nose.
A day which I can't live without tissue.
I think I killed a tree today.

Why am I still up at this hour?
HAHA. It's a secret, satisfied with the outcome I did.
Actually I was designing the blog for my project. :D
Link will be posted up once it's graded or really to present...
You can go and search maybe you can find it...
Related to supplement.

The other reason for being up, was I fell asleep once I got home.
Super fatigue with the flu.
I think I don't need food anymore, what I need is tissue and gallons of H2O.
BYE.

Something to miss

2008-07-15T23:10:00.004+08:00

Content warning:
DISGUSTNG CONTENT**
If you're eating, please stop eating;
If you're drinking, please stop drinking;
Breath in and out before you scroll further;

It's me.
When I'm young, and before I undergo orthodontic treatment.
Not much differences, I guess.
But it's the poses that make it irks.
.
Comparing the pass and now, I have so much misses.
I miss my pass.
I miss my Father.
I miss my Grandfather.
I miss my Grandmother.
I miss my Saturdays and Sundays.
I miss going to my Grandmother's house; Grandfather's house; current:Uncle's house on Sunday.
I miss the time when I could enjoy watching television programs one after another till my mother nagged.
I miss talking to my family.
I miss talking to my cousins.
I miss my cousins.
I miss you.
I miss having someone to flood my massage everyday.
I miss hanging out with my friends.
I miss my friends.
I miss ELDDS.
I miss acting.
Damn.. the list will never end...
Anyway, to keep my flickr account I have to create an Yahoo account, to merge them.
Freaking Lame.
I have a problem with remembering my email accounts, and now they're forcing me to create more. Other than lost90found@hotmail.com, I created like two or three others, but I couldn't remember them. Maybe lost90found has already inked in my brain, and my brain is so small, there's no space for more.
Now I have yahoo account too, lost90found@yahoo.com.
I guess I can remember this one.
HAHA.
It's quite a lame post.
But I really miss them, I really do.
BYE EARTHLINGS, I gonna meet them in my dream.

Crappy.

2008-07-15T04:15:00.001+08:00

HAHA.
I know you know that I'm so busy recently.
I just get so exhausted everyday that I don't wish to do anything and can't remember anything...
I'm so forgetful.
I actually forget whoever b'day till... you know I read her blog.
I know you know who I'm talking about.
Qianhui I still love you, don't worry.
It's like one week after your b'day.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY.
I know you'll not be happy that you hear nothing from your cousins, but wishes just kept coming from from your friends... It may not be cousinS but a cousin.
Anyway anyway, I still LOVE you.
DONT angry okay!

Today have to freaking write a report due to a patient's complain.
I FUCKING hate redundant extra jobs, although I'm assigned to be in that cubicle to service them. BUT I DEFINETLY CAN SAY THAT I SAID NOTHING TO PATIENT THAT LEADS TO MISCOMMUNICATIONS AND COMPLAINS.
Retarded!
I suspect the suspect but she said the reserve before we could even say/ask anything to her.
Me and other student most of the them wasn't in our cubicle(most of the time), after we did what we're supposed to do, we just roam around the ward. We have no waste of our precious time to confuse our patient. I don't know about the other shift but I suspect is HER.
I rewrote the report for freaking X number of times.
Sometimes I just don't understand why people need to put others in difficulties.
We as free labours/free angels help as much as we can in the ward but is seen as devils. Like we always get the Staff nurse into more trouble than helping them.
So much to complain! Nursing isn't that easy as it look! NOT JUST CLEANING BACKSIDES!
We not only deal with patients, but their family, and not only the client them, themselves but within ourselves, eg. staff nurses, ward sisters, colleagues...
So much so much.

whatever it's. I just wish I have more time to care about myself than this shits.
let's end the post with OH CRAP like one of the stuff nurses keep saying.

OH-CRAP! Crappy life!

just a haha post.

2008-07-02T01:41:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
I always wanted to start a post by 'laughing' madly, but never find a reason to do so, and never question myself why I wanna do so...
Perhaps just trying out something mad.

Have been reading P.S. I Love You written by Cecelia Ahern, she a young and beautiful looking woman. Never actually thought that writers can be that young, I always thought that most writers are retirees; they write when they're free. But that's stereo-typing of course, there is always picture outside the box. I love the book, look how she has protraits Holly's life, Holly has a good husband to love for. I hope my love can be as true as what was written in the book... it's feel so being love and has someone to love for. Anyway haven complete reading the book, I'm a slow reader, who only reads while I'm on the train or waiting. So guess I have another one or two weeks to spend with the book.

For this week I am trying my very best to get pass it as soon as possible. I'm scare that if I get to settled with it, I may be lazy for the rest of my weeks or months... Contradictorily, the week has been so comfortable that makes me feel so uncomfortable. I'm just not use to be so so so.. unproductive. Have not tried not working for almost two weeks and get up at a very late hour since a very long time that I couldn't ever remember. On my resting period, I was thinking am I a workaholic or so. There goes a saying: When you're young you spend your health gaining wealth, but when you're old, you spend your wealth gaining your health. So I guess I fall into the category or maybe not so, because I'm way too spendthrift now... eventually I will not fulfill the second part of the sentence.
Guess your have guessed it.
I have gotten two weeks of my part-time job.
I'm not enjoying it so far, it's just like you live your life to eat, work and sleep.
It's quite boring though.
But got to catch up with my besties and friends, during the later part of week, so I guess I finally have a weekend plan since so... forever.

Guess I shall end my post with words, what's wrong with me?, it always have been words.
It's two am right now, and I'm not tired.
My body clock is wrongly adjusted.
Okay, bye.

Don't wish to be alone.

2008-06-26T22:23:00.003+08:00

Just end my day in CDC, got home at around 10pm.
A very depressing day at CDC, have to travel home alone.
Since the beginning of this attachment, I was assigned alone during my shift.
I'm not that strong, my dear NYP nursing-coordinator.
If I haven look for them, they wouldn't look for me.
Them referring to my colleague friends working together.
DAMN SAD!
WHATEVER.
Have to get use to it, as soon as possible.

Share with your a slight incident that happened just now.
Not sure whether am I suppose to say this but... I'm not stating any names, or so.. so I guess it's going to be alright.
After my break, I strolled into staff room cum pantry to put my drinks.
As I was putting my drinks, I was thinking to go to the toilet to relief my bladder.
About to do so, and call bell rang.
Quite annoyed by it, as I was I thought I could slack for some more minutes.
It was a call from my favourite uncle there.
Happily went over and asked him for any help request.
He actually said that he wanted to open bowel; he had constipated for 3-4days.
I was quite happy when he said that, but he requested to do his business in the toilet.
As I thought he may not be within my ability, and it's best to work with a Staff nurse.
Therefore I went asking from help from a staff nurse.
I approached two of them, they all replied the same: Hadn't he had his pampers?
In my heart I rebutted them: So what if he had pampers? Can't he have his right to do whatever his wants at the place he wants.
Albeit their saying, I proceed with what I was taught; to follow my consciousness.
After which, one of the staff nurse seen whatever I was doing, ran forward to help.
What I believe we, nurses, are there to help the patients, therefore we should do as much as we can to help them..

*************************

I'm freaking sad right now. :C
I'm so not use to work alone during attachment.
The loneliness...
The boredom... :S
Shall not continue with my emo thoughts, shall visit my Youtube Subscriptions, and laught my emo-ness out!

Routine of my life during attachment

2008-06-26T10:26:00.003+08:00

HEY people, I know your miss me, I miss your too!
HAHA.
NARCISSISM!

anyway, life have been super busy.
In actual fact it's not busy just it's just pure lethargy I'm experiencing.
How my life goes during these few days was...
(1) Wake up (0530)
(2) Switch on the computer
(3) Wash-Up (0550)
(4) Research on the 'homework'
(5) Get Going (0605)
(6) Walk to MRT and wait for it (0620)
(7) Journey to Novena (0642)
(8) Walk to CDC (0658)
(9) Put down my stuff and sign in (0705)
(10) Listen to report (0750)
(11) Follow a staff nurse, help out as much as I can... (1000/1100)
(12) Have my break (1100/1200)
(13) Answer call bells/ Read case sheets (1300)
(14) Meet Mdm Tang[My clinical instructor] (1500)
(15) GO HOME! Repeat (7) then (6) then back to Sembawang (1600)
(16) Get Set C from MR Bean[Soya-Pearly with blueberry pancake] (16.10)
(17) Wash-Up (16.15)
(18) Watch television (17.15)
(19) Sleep till next morning.

Since Monday till yesterday I have been living this kind of boring routines.
Today I'm working Afternoon shift therefore have bit of time to blog.
But shall tell your more tomorrow, kind of rush today...
BYE PEOPLE! :D

THANK-YOU post

2008-06-22T20:38:00.002+08:00

Yesterday recieved a massage from Xanthe.
She read my blog and sent me various way to get to KKH, and told me that CDC is not inside TTSH but a 10minute-walk away.
HAHA.
TOTALLY GRATEFUL FOR THAT, BIG HELP!
THANK YOU, XAN! (She likes pink so make it pink. :D)

Today is totally not a day for work.
It started to rain in the morning and like you know, when the weather turns cold, your bed will be the best place to stay in. My body and mind refuses to get out of bed when the alarm rings off. Last resort to threaten myself that if I don't, I'll be scolded by my first-in-charged; who is the scariest woman in this world when she scolds. The fear got myself jumped out of bed, that's how frightening it is.
The whole day was just pretending, pretending to be hard working, pretending to be to know everything, pretending not to be tired... etc.
haha, this post is getting no where.
SUPER TIRED right now, have to prepare for tomorrow attachment.
:D Goodnight earthlings.

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED!

2008-06-21T02:23:00.004+08:00

I HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY C'MAINE!
Suppose to complete this but, lazy and busy. (always that excuse)
BUT here I'm playing it!

Rules of the game:

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Ok, Lets start:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I'll play it dramatic.
Like you know, all the 9pm dramas.
Maybe I'll kill the 3rd party, or get super emotionally and kill myself.

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To be god.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
Something romantic, like what always happen in the movies..

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Currently, yes.

#5. What will you do if you found a bag of money?
I'll look if anyone's looking, or look out for gotcha camera.
If no one is looking and no cameras, I'll be dishonest and keep them.

#6. Then, what will you do if you keep the money?
If you didn't keep the money, will you regret?
I'll bank it, and will get interest out of it.

#7. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
To be love.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Curse and swear; start comparing.. etc.
After which, I'll find myself stupid.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
YES, but that's part and parcel of life.
I always say it's just how you think, you can make yourself HAPPY if you really want to.

#10.Who makes your day?
MYSELF, MY THINKING, ME.
(But... myself, me, my thinking, is all made out of the people around me!)

#11. What will you do will you're feeling down?
CRY. (best way to release myself)

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
To my opinion, 27/8 years old is still considered young, so at the age maybe I'll have a beer-belly due to too much clubing, get drunk everyday, not bathing will not be a problem, house will stink like garbage truck with lots of cockroaches crawling... (joking) that only can be imagined.

Perharps something more to reality.
I'll have a stable job, working non-stop like a workaholic, too oblique to everything, as clumsy as before, maybe settle down with a relationship, about to marry or have a first child...
That's how beautiful I'm thinking my future now, but who knows...

#13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
IF you ask me the most important person, it will be my mother.
But people: (it will be more general) Everyone around me. With your, it'll be just me.

#14. If you passed away, you're given a choice to reincarnate into, what will you choose?
And why?
I want to be elephant.
Because I want to enjoy their carefree life.
Not as in really carefree, but not as stress as a human.

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
If I have to choose, I'll choose married but poor.
Poor people can live happily too, moreover I'm married..
Marriage it's not just about one person, but both.
The interaction between two person can be magical.

#16. What is the first thing you do every morning?
Recently, the first thing I did was to groan about having to wake up at the insane hour.

#17. Would you give all in a relationship?
It's a maybe question.
There's so much to be considered.
If my partner deserve that, I'll definitely give.
Relationship is all about giving and taking.
Can't possibly, you're always the one who gets to eat, but your partner always starve.
One day he/she will die OR move on...
Back to the question, I'll doubt I'll give all, but as much as I can give.

#18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
None perhaps.
I'm a lazy person hate being dilemma.
Too much thinking kill my brain cells.
It's either want or don't want.
Don't want would be a better choice in this case.
If you ask me If I happen to crave for two ice-cream, maybe I'll buy both of them.

#19. What type of friends do you like?
Friends who are nice and caring.

#20. What type of friends do you dislike?
Hate friends how always talk continuously non-stop without even catching a breath.
They talk about everything and anything.
What you wish you could just shut their mouth, but being the always nice guy who oblique to everything. I'll just shut myself off.

tagged:
All people who read my tag.

where is CDC and KK hospital?

2008-06-21T02:06:00.004+08:00

Hey people, is CDC located in another building or in TTSH?
I couldn't even find a website that is under Singapore CDC.
What I found was this, CDC which is under TTSH.
So the ward91/72 I'm suppose to go is in TTSH?
I'm suppose to know all these weeks before but I was too lazy to find out.
Today at this hour, at that very near last minute, I just finished checking my schedule for my attachment.
But I have a BIG problem now.
I don't know where is CDC and KK Hospital,
and I don't know how to go...
Guess have to seek help from my friends..
Alternatively... hehe(evil laugh),
YOU, yes you, who is reading this...
NOW, yes now, click on to comment and start typing the ways to go to CDC and KK hospital.
(I stay in Sembawang, and prefer to travel by MRT)

Please please, really need it. :D
(don't playplay with me hor!)

I'm a lazy person!

2008-06-20T00:02:00.004+08:00

Now the links are getting longer and longer.
Not advertising for anyone in my links.
I like to read them but hate to save them under a notepad.
It's so troublesome to always copy and paste the links.
Know that there is something call favourites, but prefer this method.
It's like a stone killing two birds at one go.
I can share with you people; the links I normally visit, at the same time it's for my sake.
Just call me lazy.
Feel like as I aged, I'm getting lazier and lazier.
Now, I'm worst then before, I got lazier that I'm lazy to pretend that I'm not lazy.

As a lazy person, I often love shortcuts.
That's why I had chosen Mozilla Firefox, then Internet Explorer.
They're the first to came out with the tab tab thingy.
Before Mozilla Firefox bought into my life, I always was annoyed by how many windows I have to open. As I'm lazy, I love to do a lot of things at the same time to shorten the time I spend in front of the computer. But I will always end up with 10 and above Internet explorer which is super irksome. NOW Mozilla Firefox has improved.
Mozilla Firefox 3 is out!

Today you'll make history with Firefox

Are you ready to make history? Are you ready to set a World Record? Today is Download Day. To become part of the official Guinness World Record you must download Firefox 3 by 17:00 UTC on June 18, 2008, or roughly 24 hours from now.

Set the Guinness World Record with Firefox!
Are you as lazy as me?
I downloaded, have you?

(refer to Felixer for more information)
Felixer is a blogger who blog about almost everything.
Reading his post to keep me updated with the world. :D

Anyway if you wanna speed up your Firefox, check out this site.
I really works.

Something random.
Last time I complained that I couldn't see my nuffnang,
now I can't see the pictures from Zipia.
How my I gonna shop with the pictures.
Somebody help.

Life

2008-06-19T14:03:00.003+08:00

Now my head is feeling super light.
Just cut my hair on Monday.
Now it's SHORT, not like the previous emo hairstyle.
I always find it hard to communicate with hairstylist.
They always will ask this: 'what kind of hairstyle would you like?'
and I will always say, whatever, just cut it, just make it not so messy
They really did, but the style was always to their likings.
Don't you always find it hard to define what you want to them, and not wanting to talk so much with them. I never like talking with hairstylist cause whenever I visit a salon, I really wish to enjoy the comfortable sit and relax as the music plays.

Whatever it is, my hair is short now.
Soon I'll get use to it, anyway attachment ain't suppose to have emo hairstyles.

Recently catch up with quite a number of old friends.
Like last Friday, went out with secondary school friends.
I was so embrassed that whole day.
In the start we playing Frisbee, and as I was trying to do a catch.
Guess what have happened.
My pants torn, a slight bit at the most embarrassing place.
I quite know how to handle this kind of moment, I pretended that everything is normally, continued with the game.
After which we went cycling, like you know, when you sat the torn part will open.
I tried to cover it as much as I can, luckily no one notices it.
We travel to and fore (5-6kms of cycling), super tireding.
After which we went to clean up ourselves, and I totally forgotten that my pants was torn.
I sat down on the bench with my legs open facing a group of people barbecuing.
As I was looking at the sea direction, at the corner of my eye, I saw a couple playing 'scissor paper, stone'. I happily enjoy my view and didn't bother about them.
They caught my attending again, as the guy was walking towards my direction.
I wondered what happen and pretend that I was enjoying the scenery.
He came beside my ear was whispered to me that my pants was torn.
I was stunned for a second, remembered which.
I thanked him, and quickly rushed to the toilet.
Super embarrassed, I still put up 'as-if-everything-was-alright' face in front of my friends.
That quickly end the embarrassment.
In the night, we went Chiomp Chiomp to have dinner.
The food there was heavenly, shall go there again.

Okay, shall end the post here.

Clumpy self

2008-06-11T22:32:00.004+08:00

How many word that start with C can you describe on me:
Clumsy,
Careless,
Crappy
... etc.

Today I did clumpy stuff as usual.
Incident #1
I mistaken my key as rubbish and threw it in the bin.
I tried to retrieve it back, but I guess because of the weight it sink into the deepest hole and got glued there. Moreover, I totally couldn't reach the base of the bin, the height of it is high up to my waist. With my short hands I totally couldn't reach it and I end up looking like a retarded, or already is retarded.

I miss my key!
GIVE ME BACK MY KEY, YOU MONSTER!

Incident #2
Singapore is so small yet so complicated.
Just a 5 minute walk you realised that you are in another shopping mall.
I adjourned from city link to Marina Square mall, and happily thought that it's Suntec City mall. I got a movie ticket from the Golden Village Cinema which I took 10minutes to find. After which I realised that I didn't enough cash to spend and went searching for a DBS atm. I happily got lost in the freaking mall and end-up turning round the whole mall for god-knows times, and after being direct by the information counter to god-know where. Maybe the toilet? With my intelligent brain I finally realise that I have been there before and recalled that the ATM is just 100steps away from the cinema. Why did I talk about the movie tickets? Think about this I'm meeting ML in Suntec City mall and is going to watch a movie at Marina Square mall, albeit it just a 5 minute walk, don't you think is a bit MADNESS, not a bit totally MADNESS, when Suntec City has a cinema.

I hate memorising directions!
Next time I'll hire directionst..

One day I'll die in the street without knowing why.
Maybe it's because I'm clumsy?
or stupid like what ML said.
haha.

Story of traffic lights.

2008-06-10T19:49:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I just wonder does a gangster thinks before they speaks?

Tell you a short happening today.
I was waiting for the traffic light to turn green, and happen there was two gangster-wanna-be cyclists who cycling in a 20km/hr speed on the road. I was thinking that how dangerous is it to cycle on the road; who knows a big truck traveling in 100km/hr and didn't see the tiny little you who chose a tiny little bicycle and cycle on the tiny little road. BANG! There you go! Flying like a superman but landing like a pancake. With these train of thoughts I happen to look at one of the gangster-wanna-be, and guess what he shouted at me?

' Kua Si Mi Lan Chiao!'
Direct translation: Look what penis!

When they shouted that, I feel like saying I'm looking at a Small ugly slanted penis!
They actually refer themselves as Lan Chiao.
HAHAHA!
I was looking at them, and they knew that I was looking, so when they said that aren't they referring themselves as penis?

Anyway I recalled Fam told me a story of her friend's friend.
(Lets' call her Q)
Q pass away in a road-traffic accident on her first day of school due to her Jay-walking.
You thought that when you Jay-walked, and cars start coming in your direction.
You think that you're smart enough to stand on the small island that separate the roads.
You happily think that you're save from the cars.
This story tells you that you're wrong..
Q stood on the island, and a driver drove onto her.
A pregnant driver claims that she was was in a rush.
After she told me the story, I never Jay-walk again.
Sounds scary isn't it?

Don't Jay walk but you're in a rush... HOW?
I saw this video that works for motorcycle, but maybe maybe it works for human too.

Trigger GREEN Traffic Lights! - The best video clips are here

Maybe you can try it and tell me does it work..

A moment of happiness and a moment of sorrowfulness.

2008-06-10T00:47:00.003+08:00

Yahoo oooo~!!!!
My 'hoo' can last forever, cause I'm really in great mood right now.
Thinking that I have two weeks of break!
I really need and deserve it, if not you'll see my picture being printed on the front page newspaper, not because I'm famous... but you know...
Nah; digressed.
This week is well-planned with lots and lots of outing, lots of catch up have to do. :D

(drastic change of mood when I talk of my job)

How about work?
I hate my job and IC so much that I literally thought of quitting with ever moment I spend with my IC. If you ask me to use describe my job, I'll say it's indignant. :C
I still love my ex-manager, DALIMA you're the best!
Reality leads me to no choice.

*****************************

What happened today really strikes me.
Can't believe that if one day my mother is gone, I really can't imagine it.
You know I really do although I appear not to love my mother.
Today I finally have time to sit and eat with my mummy.
She was told by her friends that she aged drastically.
A sign that I never realize recently, it was even told to her by her friends.
Find that I really haven been staying home since forever.
Can't remember when was the last time I looked at my mother closely.
I have a close look on her.
She really aged and is aging fast.
She got thinner, and more winkers has tattooed on her face.
Winkers that has showed her all sorrowfulness.
Suddenly I felt unfilial.
Maybe it's not just my feelings, it's how your feel too.
At this point, I feel helpless.
Helpless of saying louder than doing.

Maybe I should just quit my job (since I'm working so unhappily) and accompany her more.
What do you think?

I have no one to say.

2008-06-05T22:36:00.001+08:00

(saved as draft)
(words that shouldn't be published)
(so many reasons that this can't be vebalise and published to/for anyone)

OMG. OMG!

2008-05-27T09:33:00.003+08:00

OMG news:

First OMG news,
I PASS MY CLINICAL!
Extreme delighted!
It's extremely lucky to get 'Insertion of NGT and Suctioning'; the most easiest question among all. Now I can't stop smiling to myself:D
The best of all was Fam, Maine and I, all got the same question!!!\

Second OMG news,
Today my school actually can watch youtube video, guess something is wrong with the internet filter.
COOL!
how do I know about it?
I was in my blog, and it happens that the youtube video start playing.
Maybe it doesn't concern you but I find it quite interesting.
Now I can skip all my lectures to watch youtube videos.
Wahahaha.

Episode two.

2008-05-26T19:26:00.004+08:00

I hate hate the feeling of being alone for doing almost everything.
I'm it's my life.
I know I'm 18 now.
But still wish to have much more fatherly love that I should have, or motherly love from my parents, or even brotherly love.
:C

It's just a few days away, and here I'm posting about this kind of shit.
If you're not tired of reading it, I'm tired of experiencing this kind of dramatic feeling.

QUARREL QUARREL QUARREL!
everyone love to pick the wrong time to quarrel with me.
How much more episode does this show has?
Seems like it's never ending!

Back to study!

My dentist hates me.

2008-05-25T11:29:00.003+08:00

I'm not sure is it me or is it the dentist
Am I too sensitive, or the dentist really hates me.
I always think that I have a 'big-enough' mouth to place the metal thingy onto my teeth.
But for every visit to the dentist, he will use his whole biscep strength to stretch my mouth with his powdered-latex glove. (Can you imagine the PAIN!)
When I got out of the room, I find myself looking like a clown.
A swollen mouth with powder around it.

I suspect that he really hates me.
I'm always not on time for his appointment.
And this time I even forgot his appointment date!
Wahahaha!

Today I waited there for sometime, as I was put under 'walk-in appointment'.
Not their fault but mainly my problem.
Who ask me to forget their appointment, I almost forget the 'make-up appointment' till I was almost asleep on Friday night. Is suddenly realise that I have been to any dentist appointment since ages ago, and the appointment date suddenly appear in my mind.
And as I was saying I waited there for sometime, I saw ALL the patient who came out of the room is fine, without swollen mouth or powder on their face.
HOW can I not conclude that he hates me!
Damn him, I hate him too!

Quick post!

2008-05-23T23:55:00.004+08:00

Just finished my baobei's baobei(my dear's dear)!
Spent two hours on this, but quite happy with the outcome, and the reaction that she gave.

I must study!
Next Tuesday lab test is very important me.
Lab test always is.
No one actually quite believe I'll study, and I'll do so for your to see.
Cheers for me.

Share this super cute self-made video by sundaypig.
Music by Corrinne May - Little SuperHero Girl

After watching leap years, start loving her songs a lot.

MADNESS!

2008-05-23T01:38:00.003+08:00

Heeheehaahaa!
(monkey laugh)
Tell me I'm MAD.
The computer I used is also MAD.
The lights in my house also MAD.

I don't know what's wrong with my computer, I'm unable to see the nuffnang ads in my blog.
:C
This is what I see from my blog:

This is what I saw from others:

"Error matching blog to blogger entry. If you are the owner of this blog, please check that there is no typo in your blog address and that you have pasted the code from the Add Ads page correctly."

I checked double, triple, quadruple, quintuple, sextuplet... times and it's still not working!
I need some professional help from anyone.
Help me by commenting the solution to my problem!

One of the light in my house keep flickering, it's damn irritating, but I'm too lazy to do anything to it. Thus, it keep on flickering, and irritates me.
I also need some professional help from anyone.
Help me by changing the light bulb for me!

For myself, you all should have already know the reason why I'm mad.
I'm really mad.
By saying that means I'm ain't MAD!
A person who suffered from depression will not claims that they're suffering from depression.
Same theory applies.

I'M MAD!

SMS

2008-05-21T09:38:00.002+08:00

HAHA!
Skipped Biology laboratory class, I don't even know is there or there isn't.
Just don't wish to go.
(LAME)
More lame stuff.
SMS on radiation wave a hoax.
The text message read:
“Please switch OFF all ur handphones 2NITE. According to Metro TV, there will be a BIG RADIATION WAVE circulating thru the handphone towers at 11PM 2nite which is very DANGEROUS to humans. Pls inform ur friends NOT 2 keep their phones with them. Please FORWARD. Rgds.”
Before you believe tge text massage you receieve, Read this!
The massage that we receive wasn't even started locally.
With technology nowadays, people can do/tell you anything.
HAHA, if this massage keep forwarding, from today onwards people will off their handphone after 11pm.

HATE

2008-05-19T21:24:00.003+08:00

I HATE YOU, I HATE MY LIFE, I HATE EVERYONE!

and I hate myself even more...

I wish I wouldn't cry.
I wish I wouldn't cry for this family.
The last time was because of this family,
and today was just another time.

SO SICK!
SO TIRED!

where are the people I need??
I guess there isn't anyone.
PEOPLE ARE SO DISAPPOINTING!
so am I..

:_C
I shall MIA for tomorrow, I'll switch off my phone intentionally.
Don't bother to sms/call me or even ASK me about THIS.

my battery is going flat.

2008-05-16T01:28:00.004+08:00

Have I ever told your that I really like how a great dancer able to move his/her body as his/she wishes. It's really cool!
After looking at these videos, I admire them even more.
If you ask me to dance, you will see a pole swinging...

Ain't they just good at doing so?
Sigh, how I wish I could have their body.
In life I really seems like a robot, is either I work or school.
Now I hardly could spend my time at home, or with my family. :C
Really wish to be like them, start and start as they wish...

ML
Watch 'Made of Honor' together, it's prefect for couples to watch albeit the ending was kind of expected.

sososososo tired, but still hope to be with you every single day.
Just love how we end the day together.

Original or Fake?

2008-05-14T00:12:00.005+08:00

http://japstreetwear.blogspot.com

TELL ME THAT THEY'RE NOT SELLING 'GRADE A' FAKE GOODS!
:C!
One of my friends actually found out a sort of similar online-shop:
http://thesforce.blogspot.com/
which stated that they're:
*All items are Grade A replicas unless stated.
*Quality & comfort guaranteed.
(Quoted from the site.)

I can't find anything statement from http://japstreetwear.blogspot.com or http://japstreetwear.com.
I'm super sad after hearing the news.
DAMN!

TELL ME THE TRUTH!
I still hope that the Madasaki red hoodie I bought is the real one.

Pretty emo, like I always do.

2008-05-11T22:49:00.004+08:00

what I wish for was so simple, but so difficult to achieve...

A emotional starting after a long MIA like I always do.

I hate being independent!
I'm still a human being filled with lots and lots of emotion.
I'm yet 18.
I still need someone to care.
I can't walk through the rain...
I can't stand up once again... on my own...
I just need someone to accompany me along this tough road.
When nobody understands, I really really hope that you will be the one to stand for me...
I don't really care how other people feels or do they really care for me, what I really need is you...
Only you.

Really need a long break.....(dots multiply by a million)

loving day..

2008-04-28T22:23:00.003+08:00

The fact that I just vomited makes me damn grumpy right now.
I'm not sure why I'm experiencing this cramp/pain in my stomach. Maybe is the freezing cold air-conditioner in the movie theatre makes it so.
Watch Hansel and Gretel with ML today.
Pretty nice show, I love the plot of the story, didn't expect the story outline and the interval happenings... To me it's not that frightening till I'll scream and fall on to the ground. It's those kind of movie that you will get excited when the 'horror sound' plays when the main role trying to discover something which is hiding.

Don't judge the movie by the poster!
I almost fall for the ugly cover and not watch the movie!

TODAY is filled with love, and I'm in love! <3

stupid relationships.

2008-04-25T23:19:00.003+08:00

Still remember during my secondary school years life, there is always a season of love and season of breakups. When there is lots of couple start being together and people will name the period to be season of love, and vice verse.
I hate both seasons!
Compared to the season of breakup I still prefer the season of love.
Although when jealousy does develop when most of your friends getting their partners, but most of the time you'll be happy for them... Happiness spreads!
What is worst is when a best friend of your suddenly came crying to you, the feeling suck to the core...
and I'm not expecting that polytechnic life would be the same. I thought that people matures, and less puppy love and less unreasonable breakups insights.

Not saying that only my friend couldn't believe my friend's breakup, I couldn't believe it myself. I always thought that they could last long and always teased them; when're they getting married. But after all seems like that guy is still inmature in the relationship... I mean you don't just breakup with your girl ant not tell her any reasons... You said that you have your reason, so what is it?! Secretly I hope that you have your comeuppance for your next relationship, and you'll get the feeling of 'no-reason-break-off'.

IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT FOR YOU TO DO THAT LA, STUPID BAS.!
feel really really sad and angry for my friend, you could tell if a person really really do love the other... REGURADLESS of what have happened, your still have us okay?
FRIENDS are forever, but LOVE is just a maybe...

Once again..

2008-04-21T06:58:00.003+08:00

Hey people, it's really nice to be blogging once again.
Actually my computer was 'send back' to us last Sunday, but my school and work schedule forbids me to update your asap...
Things have moved on and changed quite a bit.
Now I'm officially Baleno past-time staff(it's happens last holiday), tell no one about this especially to Coffee Club manager. I told her I would tell her when I can go back to work, but this seems to be impossible now... One of the rules that made us signed was not to work under any other company during contact with them.
Why I changed the job, you may ask?
Part of the reason was the pay...
During this long break of this blog, I'm no long junior in my school! I'm YEAR 2 now, people shall greet me as SENIOR!!!
Damn BIRDIES, call me SENIOR!
I totally hate most of the year 1s' in my school, they're f.idiotic!
I HATE THE WAY THEY LOOK AT US, AS IF WE'RE YOUNGER THAN THEM?!
I HATE HOW MOST OF THEM TREAT OUR SCHOOL AS A CASINO, some of them happily bring their poker cards and occupied the seats in the canteens or the discussion rooms!
If you have no none of the above actions, you're not who I'm referring to...

School haven been a problem recently, I'm so getting use to waking up early.
For example, last night I worked till closing, by the time I reached home was 12 plus. After cleaning up myself I switched on my computer and complete my ICA presentation slides. By the time I finished I realised, it was mid-morning already 4plus am. I slept for 3hrs and wake up for my 10am lecture. Madness, but was overcomed.

Today I finished class at 8pm, madness right? But that wasn't the worst. I recieved an phone call from ML on the train going home, once I answered the call, she yelled overed the phone and said I cause her phone to dropped inside the toilet bowl. I stuned for awhile and wondered did her called the wrong person or had she went mad? She contiuned shouting that it was me who she's going to reply, who pestered her to reply my smses... and that cause her phone dropped. I was like what-the-hell, what-a-connection-to-be-my-fault!
But to my little moral aspect, I still felt sorry for her... She just got her phone less than a year and precious her phone much more than I do... and hope that she could be happy after seeing these sentences.
I'm SORRY, DON'T BE SAD, BELIEVE ME OR NOT IT'LL BE OKAY!
Lastly, I have to say... she is good in psycho-ing.

That's it for the day, enjoy your Thrusday night!

Freaky video.

2008-01-21T00:20:00.000+08:00

Videos that makes you freak out!
I'm not sure what are they doing, sort of like the assessment on harvesting on organs. It's sort of like the same as the video I posted some time ago; harvesting of organs? Old rules, Video will be deleted within 24hours.
WATCH AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!
People who are illiterate will not be entertained.
For myself, I chose to mute the video, because some bastard just add in the freakest horror sound into the video.

(DELETED)

The way they ripped the cadaver is so cruel, but to think of it, you can't be gentle when it comes to certain situation.

To Maine, and Maine's grandmother,

Maine and Maine's grandmother, be brave okay!
Maine, you're not going to lose anyone...

:-

Music/

2008-01-19T00:57:00.000+08:00

Listening to: J.Lo - Brave
The song is super nice, it's a song that you'll never get sick of. Just loop the song on your mp3/4/5/6/7 and you'll bounce with the beat.

Sometimes listening to a song is not purely on the language, it's much more than that. It's about how a person illustrates a song, it's about the tune of the song, it's the music and it's the feelings for the song.
I heard this song from Ash's blog, I like it very much.
It's a Malay song name Bertakhta Di Hati, factually, I don't even understand what the title meant.
Somehow it's trying to say how heartbroken she is.

It's nice to listen to sad song when you're emotionally unstable.

Good or bad day?

2008-01-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

Remembered this morning, I blogged about how tired I'm and how much cue cards I still have to complete. After so much time spent on my cue cards, my exam was postponed to next week!
Bitch is the word!

During Biology practical, I wonder where did I put my concentration on?
At my very last question of Biology practical, I realised that I have shaded a question more in between somewhere, and I have no where to shade my last question. This make me realise I made an big mistake!
After realising my error, I raised my helpless hand for help.
I questioned one of the lecturer whether could I go through the stations again. A strong rejection opposed even before I could finish my sentence. I should have asked help from Mr Lam instead. After half an hour, I was urged by my friends to get back my rights...
When I went into Mr Lam's office, I sounded like I'm a desperate kid for sweet.
I said something like this, I really need your help... I shaded wrongly during the exam... Can you do something to help?
I kept asking him to help help help instead of explaining the whole situation.
Then he asked me what I do mean.. and said something like why am I so careless...
Then he asked for my name, tutorial group, and referred to his computer.
When he told me I had a border line pass, I was stunned.
A test half an hour ago, was resulted so rapidly?
When I heard that I passed, I was overjoyed..
The conversation ended soon after he break the news to me.

Consider today a good or bad day?

Short break update

2008-01-17T00:56:00.000+08:00

Having a short break now.
Keep going, JS! Just 3 more assessments to be written on the cue cards,
(Okay, it sounds like a lot, lets' make it sounds lesser) erm, just less than 10 assessments to complete.
Hooray~ my ass.
I still haven complete my Biology, I think I can die for tomorrow.
Never mind about Biology first, now my objective is to complete the cue cards and wake up later in the morning and continue my studies.
Today is going to be a sleepy day again, the day after today need to 'chiong'(work super lot) work again.
Haha, I know Fam, exam is coming, I need to stop chion-ing work...
BYE, get back to my cue cards!

a little letter to him

2008-01-16T04:13:00.000+08:00

In 2007 there was lots of permenant changes in my life.
There was couple of 'makeover' on myself; piercing and bracing of teeth.
Losing another grandparent of mine.
Getting a new job in Coffee club.
With these, I'm sure I hope no encore for 2007.
Every year people will say that they hope for a better year, and I believe that that's everyones wish. If there's a god, I believe that he will not make the world so prefectly that he has nothing more to do. I feel that last year wasn't a great year for me, and I really hope that he can do something with my future.
TO him,
You know... I need some encouragements/rewards in life, don't always depresses me with life situation that is difficult to cope. I don't wish to feel alone, when there is no one to ask for help.
Just do something to make me feel that you;re really there... at least someone who I can ask for hopes.
You know what I mean...

at least no infection for my ears...

If you really wish to pierce, you just have to know how to take care of it.
That's what I feel now. Look how gross my piercing can be!
A lump of extra skin was developed, and the swelling seems to be worsening.
It's been a long time since I looked closely at it, and it's definitely infection now.
Should I just remove my ear stick and let the wound close?
Extra close observation need to be done for further discussion.

but something to be joyful about...

2008

2007

BYE!

NS

2008-01-14T00:38:00.000+08:00

Now I'm trying to sign into NS Portal, with my changed password, and I realise that I forgotten my password, and the fact that I just changed my password for two days makes me look like I'm suffering from dementia!
Freak, if I have to reveal my own password, I need to wait for 3days for them to mail to my address!
Can someone kindly tell me what's my freaking PASSWORD!

Tomorrow is school again, wth.
I'm sure I'll be late for the morning class again, or I have to participate the marathon to school again. :(
Two examination this week.
- Biology Practical
- Health Assessment Examination
I haven't start study for either one of them, I need more time.

Now I'm in the agony of decoding my own password, irony plus irony.
BYE, update tomorrow.

Yesterday was white, today is orange!

2008-01-13T10:45:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was white, today is orange.

Today denial appointment was a crap too.
I waited for two months just for this appointment because the dentist's schedule was so packed. During the last visit the braced-face auntie (okay fine, I'm one too) told me it was today at 10am, but she didn't put on the appointment book that they had. Before I left I knew this was going to happen because I saw her not witting in the appointment book. I love the auntie today, she was sweeter than the braced-face. Anyway, they managed to squeeze me into the schedule today, and the dentist was so fast, he completed tightening the wires within less than 5minutes. I bet he was damn panicky. As my motor sense are not really flexible, I'm unable to control my muscles freely.
What I kept hearing from my dentist is:
- Move the tongue away...
- Can you relax your lips, I'm trying to push them down.
- Can you look down?
(You know my definition of looking down means, my eyes looking down, not my head plus eyes looking down.)
I don't felt that he was trying to be rude, just that I kept pushing him to his limits.
Today I finally chose a colour for my modules, and I chose orange!
Orange is a happy colour to me, so I have chosen it.

And bye for today!

worst mail sent

2008-01-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

Tell you being a male Singaporean is not easy...
I just received a letter from MINDEF Singapore (I don't even know what the MINDEF stands for) to register to be a NS man. I guess it means Military Defence? correct me if I'm wrong.
Anyway the whole process it's a chore, I couldn't figured out how to login the damn thing. After many tries, I sent a email to someone who I don't even know for mercy help... but few mintues later, I figured out that I was at the wrong place that I supposed to login. The wrong process is a total crap. Then I sent a email back saying that I'm sorry, the problem is solved.
ARGH, it's a biggest embarrassment to send that mail!
You know what I typed in the mail:
Hi,
I said sorry for the informal mail I sent, but I need a little help. I'm unable to login to the blahblahblah. Please reply asap, thanks.
Best regard,
JingSheng,
and my freaking IC number.

DAMN, if I'm the person reading this I will laugh till I'm out of breath.
The worst thing is I don't know which help out I sent to!
Freak!

Now I have to complete the damn irritating task before I sleep, because I don't want to overshot the due date.
Anyway, today went to NYP's open house.
The performance was super cool, I enjoyed it.
Love Fam's performances too, althought it's super short.
Fam love yourself more! Stop bruising yourself!
Didn'

For those who will miss me, this is for you.
(I'm puking too!)

Love this photo, scenary is super nice.

I shall end my day here, bye.

and you know what...

2008-01-12T01:26:00.000+08:00

Hey you know what, Fam is performing for the School's opening.
I'm so excited, yooo~
It's my first time watching her doing cheer leading stances, cool.

and you know what...
I'm so attracted to those people who dances, they can groove along with the music beautifully, and dance according to the beat. They can also move bodies damn freely, somewhat like they can twist and fold their bodies into half or quarters! OVER Exaggeration, stupid!

and you know what...
I those kind of people who is super "un-pandang"(unsuperstitious) and super annoying in front of those super 'pandangs'(supersti-ple = superstitious people).
As you know I'm a free thinker, I sort of don't believe there is any gods in this world. The only time I believe there is god is when I hope for a miracle to happen. I so sure that after this is posted I'm gonna get thousands of spasms.
" who do you think god is, a puppet for your miracle?
don't be knns, go eat shit!
you don't believe in god, you will die badly painfully!
You will either be pushed down the mrt track, or hit by a car, or die by eating.
you'll just be unfortunate for your life.
Even when you die you'll stay down in 18 level of hell.
you'll never get a chance to reincarnate, even if god is kind to let you so, you will become a ant, and stepped on the first minute of your birth.
That the retribution of not believe in any gods! "
Whatever it is life still have to go on, with or without god.
Some may ask why am I so un-pandang, and here's the answer to it. Being a pandang person have to restrict and refrain themselves from all sort of things, or they have to tried our all sort of things which look kind of stupid and out of logics. I hate restrictions and to do the must-dos, force-to-dos, and make-no-sense-dos. And I just believe what I see to believe.

anyway, and you know what..
I really like songs that have choir singing as the background. Just like Stand by me by Shayne Ward, it's super nice don't you think so?

and you know what...
there was this time that a super big grasshopper 'fly' or whatever manages to get up to the 3 storey of central mall. It stays along the otherside of window for sometime, I guess it favourite is people watching.
It's freaking sexy!

and you know what...
There was this once my oil blotter formed a heart shape coincidentally.

and you know what...
In the pass I really look like Shin Chan, obviously is without my buck teeth.

BYE, eyebrows.

10-01-2008

2008-01-10T19:19:00.000+08:00

So cool, all my chums pass Health assessment today!
I'm so glad that they passed but I totally have no confident on it, wish me luck on that day.
While waiting for them, I played Marble Madness 3D game on Maine and Blythe's phone and hit level 4. It's installed in Sony Ericsson W810i.
It's so interesting, you just have to move the phone which have sensor installed and the ball will eventually move.
Weee~ here's a Youtube video on it- not my phone anyway.

Today is the start of my school's opening, it's kind of interesting as lots of booth is set up.
Heehee, I got something special and cool.
Come my school to check it out.

BYE.

you know life is interesting...

2008-01-10T02:35:00.000+08:00

Sometimes life can be irritating yet funny.

Jokes that cracks me up recently.
JONDIS FREAKS!

Two days back, while attending Nursing Laboratory lesson.
Fam suddenly said that she wants to tan herself, and she feels like she is suffering from Jondis.
The way she describes her skin colour is really interesting.

Few days back, I accompanied Ash to the Passenger Service counter to top up his Ez-link card.
After the card was top up, the person said "you're gay!" to Ash when he meant "okay".
The way he pronounce okay is super hilarious, and Ash heard the same too.
I didn't realise that if you pronounce okay, it'll sound like you're gay.
It will be damn interesting if a faggot heard what he said and replied "How do you know that?"

Another few days back, while I was working, andI was about to refill the chocolate power in a container. I took out a packet of "chocolate" power and was about to pour into the container. I refilled the choclate power one or two times before, and I always found that the colour of the packet of chocolate power is different from the one in the container, and I randomly said "Why the colour always different?" After hearing what I said, my manager stopped me, and said I finally know who is the culprit. You know what? The darker power is actually cocoa power and not chocolate power. HAHA! Actually they are the same, just that cocoa power has not been added with sugar and other stuffs.

If you read xiaxue's blog, you might have watched this.
But this is so funny the I'm gonna put and my blog too.
You know- share and share...
To enru,
I know it's care and share. haha.

Blooper of Asia News on my ass.
Opps, I mean News asia on the net.

Love bloopers and outtake.
They shows the real you, and the funny moments.

Random
During my gf funeral, my cousins and I had breakfast at The Prata house.
This is the honey paper prata which they served us.
It's super sweet and you can get diabetes from it.
It's really paper-ish, It's so crispy, that it breaks easily.
I don't think is nice, do you?

I got my 2008 calender dairy, finally can do some planning for life. :D
BYE.